The World...my world...

How the world ends with you?
when you ended, pass away, your world stopped as well. you wouldn't be able to know how the world spins anymore. when you open up your heart, your world grow larger, you know more things around you, you get to know more about the world. when you concentrate your heart on your surrounds, your world become smaller.

my world,
- still spins just like my heart beats.
- is small. i ignore the rest and concentrate what i am having
- ...it was a world full of trust. leaving in a peaceful Singapore, there were full of trustworthy people around the area.

but recently, my world got locked. no pain, no gain? no lost, no regret. No win, no lose? while i am losing a lot, winning little..
Father headed for USA today. approximately a year. kind of sad...seeing my father's friend's little boy cried. me too, wanted to do the same.(Sorry, no tears for me.)
Lessen friendship all over the place.
1. Childhood dudes, Desmond and Edmond? they seems happy but busy. didn't contact them for awhile...(Sorry)
2. Primary school friends? no contact ever since i got into Chai Chee Sec.(Sec 2). suddenly, missed them so much, really want to see them again and listen to their stories.
3. Secondary school friends...lost a guy i trusted. don't know how to trust him again. avoid hearing his happenings, lend to one less topics with other secondary school friends....
4. because of my father's leave and secondary school friends, i have totally no mood to fix the jigsaw puzzle of Louis V......sorry...

it seems like, through time, i can't handle any friendship...not even starting to talk about a relation. not even close to possible...like the olden days, loner till the end. i suppose that is how i wish to continue and end my world.