The World Ends with You

Writing...

2010-09-19T09:51:00.002+08:00

This world ended since i graduated from Polytechnic with GPA 3.02. It was good, i got lesser to complain about. And this post isn't about spreading my anger, my complain nor my sadness. It is about Reflection. *'Sleep' damn it. why the hell did army teach me this. (Laugh)

*People do say, 'God damn it' and a joke did say something like 'Hala damn it'. This is better in Chinese but, 'I don't believe in Christianity, i don't believe in Buddha, i believe in Sleep' so...ya, Sleep damn it.

Well, for visitors that didn't know, i am serving the army for my nation right now, not much time to post, or i am lazy to. in addition to confidential rubbish, i can't post my complains or army related stuff on the internet. Writing, is the Title of the post. On my second day of Enlistment, one guy introduced himself "My name is *******, i write novels"...i didn't take him seriously at first, not until someone remind the bunk about him, writing novels. than, i got interested and read his novel. It is good, i enjoyed it. it is a great weekend pass time, just reading his novel.

Speaking of which, I, do write/type stories. but, due to my weak English, inconsistency and all kinds of rubbish, like NAMES, i didn't actually tell anyone about it. The 1st long story i wrote, with free style was when i am studying in Secondary 2. The year, my home got access to the Internet. I kinda got attracted to this girl, yeah, from the first day of school, without myself noticing, i stared at her almost for the whole day. First day of school, while, teachers don't have much for us, right?

This girl became my Main Character in the story. of cause, i am always full of myself, so, i am part of the story as well. not forgetting close soccer friends during Secondary School times, they are definitely inside my story. But, always...my story got long and inconsistent, i got to restart, or maybe when my computer broke down, it's a brand new story again. In the end, the names of characters didn't change. Although i hated Secondary School education, friends i made were few of the everlasting ones.

For stories, the most powerful personnels will be no other than childhood friends + my brother. Now, speaking of my brother, he did try to write. 'Sorry, i read whatever you typed' it was kinda interesting start because it was my secondary school period and Zombies hunting earth is not hot at that time! My brother foresee the future and wanted to write about Zombies hunting the world. Sadly, he stopped very soon after he started.

Always thought, whatever i do, he would be better... Of cause, backtrack a little, after reading my friends' novels, i see the differences. Description. I suck at that! In my story, the surroundings, clothes, how a person speak, what tone is he using or whatever, is always in my heart. It's like only i know, anyone else reading it, they will feel weird.

So, really, I wanted to learn and write something better. Knowing that I am a guy with no determination, o well, i will give up very soon......so, maybe i will continue to write, just for my own entertainment. 'Laugh'

Let's hope our Novel Writer would succeed, because i will definitely buy his book! A promise is a promise!! Although i hated books and didn't really complete reading a thick book before, i will read! if it is his.

Hmm, suddenly, i remember the praise to use on something i am bad at... "Naming Convention!"

This two words, brings back memory...><....

My GPA 3.02

2010-03-13T17:57:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, results for Major Project (MP/FYP) and SIP (Attachment/Student Internship Programme) came out. My GPA finally/for the first time, raised to 3. From the end of Semester 1.1, my GPA was, 2.51, 2.91, 2.93 ,2.91, 2.92 ,3.02... A 3, finally, in my polytechnic life... It's just amazing, i had been complaining about not getting 3, and now i get it, i am getting too proud of myself...First time in my life, i get something better than my Brother....talking about PSLE, O Levels, even in games like Soccer, etc. Nothing i did was better than him...now, my GPA is higher...but, o well...my brother didn't get into a course whereby he could show off his talent...won only by handicap...CRAP!...zzz...

As this could be a post in awhile, i'll just write down some thoughts...as, it feels like a repeat in history......I was transfered to Chai Chee Secondary after failing most of my subjects in Secondary One......and during the Life in Chai Chee, i always told myself...well, i really hoped that i was here when i was in Secondary One. because, these people are so fun to be with...they are people i trust and we fought together, in the Days of hard work and battled with O Levels as one.

Recently, although Polytechnic Life is coming to an end...i would like to say......C175, it would be nice if i was with your class since the beginning...i wonder what kind of person i might become. maybe not much different, but, it would be really nice if i could meet you guys earlier...

But of cause, i have seen pretty much in both C173 and C175 as a Classmate and Outsider...i guess i should be satisfied. It seems all stupid choices i made, up till today, work out bit by bit...

I suppose, i could go to National Service to the extreme...

Major Project over.....

2010-02-28T10:28:00.002+08:00

This Blog (World) almost ended with me, by my boring life. i did not post anything during my major NOT because i wanted to concentrate. it's because, there isn't much to write about. previously, when i write and write, i found out that i complain more and more. I am trying to stop complaining though...

Well, Major Project or Final Year Project, is over, now that i can consider, Pending to Graduate. Well, in the past, Secondary School, after my O Levels, within one week, i was nagging by my parents until, i got a job. didn't get much time to rest...this time.....i guess I'll slack!

Lastly, i want to...THANKS MY MAJOR PROJECT GROUP MEMBERS (and Foreign Advisor) FOR THEIR HARD WORK! Your hard work made my Major Project, fun, happy and knowledgeable.

MP week 1. End of SIP

2009-12-21T16:45:00.002+08:00

OK, skipped blogging for 6 weeks and now Jurong Life is over. but, my mystery remains, what when wrong...solution, "I hold no grudges, i will leave this Friendship to them."

MP, Day 1...

Got 2 Computers instead of 3. well, well...one laptop, is a must, i guess...Team with Joel and Dave, both suffered with me in the past, on different occasion. But now, we will suffer/fight together, as one.

For me, i've prepared everything i needed. VGA Splitter (Cable), 2GB Ram (Laptop). Equipping with HardDisk 160GB, 4GB ThumbDrive, 1GB micro SD (From NDS) for file sharing.

Even my SamSung Omnia, which is running Windows Mobile, is going to be used...

Its going to be a fully loaded Major Project, because of the three of us is going all out!

6 weeks left Part 2/2

2009-11-10T21:15:00.001+08:00

I finally got the feeling to admit. Although i had been proud, some say arrogant, saying things

like i can live even if i am alone and all those crap, it seems that i am just dreaming. i said

things like, I am me, nothing more, nothing less. and i wouldn't changed. but, it's all fake.

i am so vunlerable to the surrounding and i had changed even before i know it. today, i stand

before an arguement, and i would want to listen to the other side of the story and understand

them. and not just concentrating on my story and stand firm. I became a more understanding and

forgiving person while my surrounding is turning grey. i always told myself to move forward but

in the end, it's still the person at the starting point or the person at each check point who

saved me.

I became a frog in Master Jiraya's story, but i was in the well. when i saw hands that can pull

me out, i decline at first, yet accepted it later. when i finally get out of the well, darkness

kick me back in. the feeling of hopeless and helplessness, just like when Master Jiraya falls

helplessly into the ocean. The different part of it is, Master Jiraya place his hope on others,

while i can still fight on. and so, i shall follow the main character in Master Jiraya's book,

to be strong and never give up. like that person would say, "This is my way of Ninja(Life)!"......

6 Weeks left Part 1/2

2009-11-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

it is annoying to listen to people, who have a world of knowledge, sometimes.

months/weeks ago, this person talked to me a little, telling me things about being a programmer

in singapore and in USA. the way both country train students, like me, is like heaven and earth.

For people who knows. USA university teaches student things like 'Why are programming languages designed this way?' and 'How to write codes for Operating Systems (Eg. Windows 2000, XP,Vista etc)' while in singapore, we only learn how to write applications.

It is just similar to 'People in USA knows how to design and build a building from scratch' while

'People in Singapore only knows how to decorate or renovate rooms'. here's one example.

People in USA built a HDB for singaporeans. and Singaporeans renovate it, (Eg adding a drawer.).

People who brought and lives in the house uses the drawer we made. (We affect the users directly...)

But, the real thing is. People lives in the HDB People in USA built, and uses things people in

Singapore in people added on.

It's sad to say, we are riding on USA's glory but, it's not as if People in USA don't know how to

'renovate.'

So, what i am saying is...we use OS like Windows 2000,XP,vista. but we usually would think..

'I am using Microsoft Word, Internet Explorer, playing Football Manager'...as a programmer (To be), i refuse to be happy because i know how to program things that is used by users directly. i want to know how to create the base of everything, an OS (Windows 2000,XP.etc)... argh.......

No matter what, although the person wouldn't see this, but, Thanks for telling me anyway...

7 to go...

2009-11-01T20:12:00.003+08:00

7 Weeks to go...it will all be over within 7 weeks, i hope...... let 2010 have a fresh clean start. I don't hope to have another regretful year, regretting what i have decided. Next Year's schedule are somewhat fixed a little already. Jan-March, Major Project back in School. (Final Year Project). After graduating from school, it will be 'To the Army'......i can only wonder how life would be, but never know, never be able to change a thing in my current state.

All i know, I am getting crazy about this girl, but i can't get her. I am getting crazy with my environment, but i can only ride the wave. I am getting crazy because of my inability, but i can't be ability-ied in an instant. Wants to add on to my Life is like a Cup of Coffee, but can't think of anything recent, so, is life really like a Cup of Coffee or did my Cup just collided with another?

Still, many people do say, No matter what happens.."Life Goes on"......so, i'm Moving on!...

(Freak, just get bored of it already)......

Unmistakable, Unforgivable?

2009-10-24T03:47:00.002+08:00

For a week, people are acting weird. Or rather very straight forward. At first, i personally thought that they are showing that they hate me, ignoring me. But, think again, how am i being educated?

"How you treat people is how people will treat you".

I now believe that i must have did something wrong so that they are behaving this way. But i thought, "OK, it seems that i did something wrong. but, what?". Am i too naive? have i no self awareness? Or is it my speech didn't think twice before letting off again?...

I know that i have made mistakes this time. But, is life Unmistakable? And if mistakes are made, it's unforgivable? People always say, No one is perfect, so, my point of view is, can we try to be as close to perfect as we can? if we can't be very good, can people around us, help us and make each other as perfect as we can?

It seems like i am too childish to actually think about global understanding between the Human race as, i can't even start with having understanding for people's action around me. I know i am not an influential person, nor i am capable in doing things i want to do. Is there no way for people to understand me? forgive me? Prevent me from making mistakes?......

10 weeks to go, Ready? Go!

2009-10-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

Well, 10 weeks of Jurong East Attachment left, and it's as though my supervisor read my blog, he find and gave me something to learn. Socket Programming, is what he found. i learned a bit on that in school, but he gave me a 175 pages of it...for the weekend, i didn't touch it...forgive me, i am afraid of the 175 pages...

I always take this place to comment on friends, although it's the same friends that visit my blog. Hmm, it was last week, i started missing something...my friends' blogs. Deeply apology, I lost almost all of my friends' blogs URL, if ever anyone is willing to give me their blog's URL, i will find time to read, if permission granted, i will also put the url in this blog.

Its October and i think i need to buy somethings...Brother's birthday, brother from another mother's birthday and everybody's dear Jesslyn's birthday is also on this month...I know I want to buy something, but, i haven't decided on what to buy...hmm...it's really hard to think...man......

Coming week, Mother's away, oversea, into Xi An, west part of china, i suppose. Xi = West in Chinese. So, no free dinner daily for a week++ because my mother will be back, the week after's Tuesday...bad...really bad......

And so, i finish this week's Weekly update and there will be less to come. Stay tune...

11 weeks to go

2009-10-03T11:31:00.002+08:00

What's new? nothing! Because, all that is left to do, is to do it...nothing is left for me to learn, nothing is left for me to think, listen to my supervisor and get this thing over with, is all i can do...

Just that, the week that just past, my body is aching......office life makes people old, that might just be true...

Just one article i past by caught my attention. It says something about facebook, something like 'I don't understand why people would create 'Anti - "So and So"' groups and thousands of people would be a member of the group'...well, i can't agree more. If people don't like people, just like what our current world looks like, we cannot blame why animals like Sharks, Lions, Tiger, etc. kill us... hmm...did i drag things too far? O well, being an anti got totally no meaning to me. For example, if you don't like a particular singer, just don't listen to their songs and don't look out for them. If they appear in front of you, why can't people just act as if we didn't see them?

Human race needs understanding to gain Global Peace and the world, government or civilian isn't showing it. i may be scarred by a person, and truly, until now, i still dislike him to the core. All i have to do, is to NOT look out for him, ignore him as much as i can, and NOT to throw rubbish at him, create groups to find supporters to dislike him. And, if needed, ask around, in outings, i wouldn't stop my friends from calling him along. I even encourage people to call him, because i don't want more people to hate him because of me.

"This is Personal, between him and me. i don't need other people to get involved in this". That's what my mindset is.

"In terms of Business (Outing perhaps), we need to gather as much people as we can. He is a human (People), so, we need him in business." Because, an outing with sec sch friends is always corrupted...hmm...maybe i should say, MOSTLY corrupted...not all are...

What are friends for?

2009-09-21T20:32:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, 20/09/2009, The Four below came for Marcus' outing.

From left, myself (CS), Marcus, Jermaine and Alvin...in theory, 20+ secondary school friends are invited and yet, we only got 4. About 10 weeks ago, we went to the same place, we met Kak Song. Our old friend, lost touch since we left our dear Chai Chee Secondary...This time, we met Yutong, Limei and Yuki (Zhang Li). While Limei and Yutong was invited.

I am not blaming them for not going, because they went out with other friends. As shown above, there are writings on the Soccer Ball Marcus is holding. The three girls did help us write a little note on it, Appreciate it., Thank you.

Other excused -> Michael, Can only book out (NS) at 10pm. Karen, Parents came back from oversea, can't go out. Sharon, family dinner. CK, due to total communication break down, i don't think he even know about this outing.

But, due to personal anger, the following can't be forgotten. CY (Friday) "If nothing goes wrong, i can make it", On the day, 3pm 'Sorry, i can't make it'..., Ian - (Not sure what words he used) confirmed with Alvin that he is coming but last minute, someone at home told Alvin, Ian is playing soccer (Meeting time, 7:30pm, Alvin calling time, 6:45pm, and finally, 7:30++, Ian gave what all known as excuse and didn't turn up. Fiona? Previously said that she have a travel fair. but, she was online the whole afternoon.

But, proudly for a Liverpool fan like Alvin, Alvin, "So irony, i am a liverpool fan, yet i brought a Manchester United Cap for Marcus" (Marcus, he is warning you to take good care of it. lol)
While Jermaine and I took a walk in Tampines 1 to get the ball and SOMEWHERE we(all 3 of us) got the cake (Below Picture bottom right corner, just one slice though)

Marcus' T-Shirt is cute. lol. White Hair guy with a big sword? Kinda of like it. it would be great if he is an anime character.

Back to work

2009-09-19T21:39:00.004+08:00

One Down, many more to go, for Xiong and Zax, who just joined in the crew in ST Electronics. Others, 11 down, 13 more to go, 1 more week to (the real) Half way through.

It had been a slacking week, where by i had no programming responsibility at work. And also, not in the mood for programming at home. Learned a few tricks though. After learning some tricks, I am back on designing my Contact List for Desktop, which many said that we have our phones, why need one for Desktop. My reason being, well, when my phone malfunction the other time, I lost all my contacts. While some people, touch wood, may have lost or misplace their phones sometimes. Saving it on your desktop might, just might, help.

I am looking into VCards, which can be read on most phones, turning these VCards into Contacts. On some more recent phones, contacts can even "Send Contact via VCard". If these VCards are sent to computers, they will be in .vcf format. Usually, we will open these VCards using Microsoft Outlook, but for programmers like me, when programming things like these, we need to read these files using WordPad or NotePad.

(self reflection)...

This year seems to be a little to happening for me. First thing first, Polytechnic Year 2.2, Term B, at starting year. Enjoyed a series of happy events with C175, as i am in the same class with them.

Before Semester 2.2 ends, i learned a lesson. a hard one...

Year 3.1, learned hardship. Continued from above Hard Lesson, getting Hard Lesson 2. Which totally sum up, Do Not Trust your friends with your heart and Do Not Rely on your friends. Most likely, they can't be trusted/Relied on.

Hard Lesson 2. When Competition (Java Open Jive) is so stressful, Our great C173's God and Famous Ernest are not making any effort to cover things for me. While, one of the subject, after i broke up with them, the team member i found, isn't any better......

In the past, I might think that I covered most programming jobs for Louis V made them CAN'T program. But, it ends up being, Without Louis V, I am the one who cannot survive. I relied on them too much, instead of them, relying on me.

Internship is almost half way through, my supervisor is hiding my weakness for me, so i seems to be in good shapes up till now. Learning more skills, hiding more and hiding from my weakness. I can totally imagine what will happen when i am back in school, exploited by weakness once again. Hmm...i am too far ahead. Back in School is in December. Let's turn back the time a little.

Recently, after being influenced I am attracted to a Korean Singer/dancer. Her name is Yuri and she is in So Nyuh Shi Nae aka Girl's Generation.

O...she is so pretty. lol......can't really focus in life because of her now...

Because of This year's events, i am starting to feel...the old me is disappearing...the old me, with less emotions, dead brain, helping people (if i can manage) without much thought...Earlier this year or was it last year, i mentioned, "Dead Fish Mode"...i guess, i can't become the dead fish i used to be, just as, Time can't be Turned Back Wards, if today, 19/09/2009 is gone, there will never be another 19/09/2009.........

Life Goes On...

Yet another week

2009-09-12T14:27:00.003+08:00

10 weeks gone, 14 weeks to go. (Sorry for previous reader, it's not half way through yet. seems like i am over excited...)

Results of my Last Set of Subjects in Polytechic is out. Tourism Informatics - C+, Voice over IP System and Application - B, Mobile Commerce System and Development - B+... After this, i have completed my Set Master Piece of all Programming Subjects getting B or B+.

Year 1.1, PRSP B

Year 1.2, OOPG B+

Year 2.1, DSAG B+

Year 2.2 (Term A), SSSD B

Year 2.2 (Term B), MSYD B+

Year 3.1 (Term A), MCSD B+

while other half programming or some subjects i would like to share are...

Year 1.1, CMaths 1 Distinction

Year 1.2, CMaths 2 A

Year 1.2, B-FA B+ (Basic Financial Accounting)

Year 1.2, FNDB A (Database)

Year 2.1 MDBS B+ (Mobile Database System)

Year 2.1 WWNK A (Wired and Wireless Computing)

Year 3.1 (Term A) VOIPSA B

Sadly, i got surprisingly sad grade for this subject...

Year 2.2(Term A) MSID C+... This was a half programming subject. Whereby we are to

-First assignment -> Write a user guide for a Programming Language we never learn before

-Second assignment -> Write a user guide for users for Sub version.

-Lab test ->Test on First Assignment. Use the Language you researched on to write simply program

-Written Test. Test on some Theory we learned...

Unless my first 2 assignments are so bad that i can only get a C+. if not I did what my Tutor told me for Lab Test.Simply Programming is too simple. and Written Test, i got 18/20...what's wrong with it??......

In any Case, This is my (C)GPA as from Year 1.

Year 1.1, 2.51

Year 1.2, 2.91

Year 2.1, 2.95...(Sorry, i can't remember it's 94 or 95.)

Year 2.2, 2.91

Year 3.1, 2.92... (Newest).

Increased GPA!!! by 0.01..........

Weekly Update. (2nd edition)

2009-09-05T15:33:00.004+08:00

Yet another week past, in a pretty fast pace. But my programming skills are getting weaker and weaker. Tons and Tons of errors pop up when i thought i am finished with it. Work place is like this, even the Mobile Project i had been working on, mentioned on previous posts, is having bugs and i don't seems to be able to solve them.

So, today, i will start with the Desktop Version of this Financial Planner, whereby you can Save your Estimated Allowance for each day (Estimated maximum Expenditure), Expenditure on each item(Records) and WishLists (Items you want to buy). The Saving in this Application is calculated this way.

"Days you have an Record" Multiply "Estimated Maximum Expenditure" Minus "Records.Cost"

As i am bad at designing things, don't for too much in designing, thank you.

Its up. Report any error to me via email(tod_wod@hotmail.com) or sms, msn, facebook. thank you.

http://sites.google.com/site/2dcryption/Home/FinancialPlanner.zip?attredirects=0

Sorry, i have failed.

2009-08-31T21:08:00.002+08:00

Two weeks ago, My school's Care person, aka Form Teacher, emailed me, asking me, and other friends who joined competition, to do a Mobile Application for Windows Mobile Phones. I went round, not a lot, asking and finding people. As i self proclaim some people as too busy, i only found God Yang, 1/2 godness Grace and One of the 4 Kings Dave for the project. As King Dave have his own personal schedule, he quited after giving some opinion, which helps us quite a lot as, if an application is not doubt, is not questioned, it wouldn't go far. Thank you, King Dave.

Time past quickly and we didn't come out with any perfect or great ideas. so, we took Grace's idea. (I will soon finish the Mobile Version and will work on the Desktop version of it later) With Grace supporting, giving her opinion, designing the form and God Yang giving meaningful comments, we work on it, not in a high speed, not slow either.

In the end, As deadline is here and we haven't even finish coding. meaning, Not even started on testing. i asked everyone to stop work. We were close to finish. if that was a 3 weeks school project, we will 100% finish the project and get an B+ at least for it. (Self Praising? Sorry.) So, Thank you, God Yang and 1/2 Goddesss Grace.. I was the one who finds you both, yet i am the one who asked you both to stop work. SORRY!.

I Failed.

Life currently is amazing.

2009-08-29T15:33:00.002+08:00

Amazingly bored. Image drawing a rectangle, not with a pen, but writing lines of codes, words and digits(numbers). In programming, we use this graphics, to draw pictures. and i am required to draw in my attachment. Drawing, one, drawing multiple, put them in a resizable cell (Box maybe). To calculate the rectangle properly so that it looks good no matter what size is the cell. great......if only i started to learn this drawing earlier, i wouldn't be like now, complaining to nobody.

7 Weeks of attachment ended, 16 to go...Next week, or the week after, 6 more TP students will join in the crew, making 10 TP students in the same department, in the same company. the more the merrier? more people for lunch? less chance to go shopping center to eat, because finding sits are sooooo hard. more coffee shops and take away, i guess. or maybe, spliting into more groups to eat. i guess communication wil be a big problem for me. i can't even handle 4...... other than Louis V, which have 5 people. i guess i am not so good with handling big groups. but of cause, in Louis V, there is one guy i cannot handle...but, as people said, no one can help him if he don't help him. and of cause, recently, not sure how hard he tries, no one wants to help him. good luck to him, for his future though.......no matter what, he is still, Louis V or C173 family.

Sorry, because i am lazy to blog

2009-08-23T10:12:00.002+08:00

Same old days in Jurong, at home, daily things...85 work days in Jurong, also equals to 17 weeks left. Same old, same old, stuck in terms of programming, complete when time comes, do this do that, slack here slack there...etc.

People say laughter is the best medicine. so, this video shall do the trick.

i personally prefer SNSD Yuri's jokes. (The first and last person who tells a joke in above video). Because of some influence from friends, i had been chasing SNSD videos on youtube lately...making me lazy to work these days...(Cannot blame others, must regain self control. Concentrate!).

Recently, i receive a 'Quest' (This is totally, NOT the word to use) to program something. i started off gathering people, but, gathering people takes me, with help, more than a week...and the deadline pushed from 2 months to program to 2 weeks. 1st week was about brainstorming of ideas. yet, till today, the idea is not confirmed, so, i wonder if we will take off...next week end will need to submit it. so...i am really considering NOT to do anything. it's not complusary anyway...or is it because i am the odd one out, out of the 4 of us, that's what makes things unstable? O well, i guess, i can't really act boss just yet...because i am not meant to be boss......

2nd Post this weekend

2009-08-08T17:43:00.006+08:00

Ah, i seems to think too much out of a sudden, so...Second post on what i had been thinking and, of cause, in the First Post this week, (Earlier today actually), Life is like a Cup of Coffee, CS Style.

For an afternoon, it's thinking of different things. Love, friends, family, money...what else can i think about? soccer. Yes. On national day morning (Tomorrow), a soccer match waiting for me. Love Life, o well, nothing much to talk about. Just that, looking at people around me with bgr, jealous i would say. but, I better understand that with my current attitude, i can't get anything. What i got is already more than what i should be receiving.

friends, thats one i totally don't understand. it was suddenly, when i am slacking the whole day, i remembered. C173... My Polytechnic Class. during orientation, it's the second day. When we played 3 games with another class we won all. Most took teamwork, spirit, coordination. Thinking back, i wonder why isn't our class the Class with the most teamwork? is it because of the lost of friends in Semester 1.1? (Naming, Desmond.T, Donovan, Kelvin and Mervin). Or is it always a fatal mistake to choose a wrong Leader(Class Rep) from the start? 2 People that have the best leadership in our class never became the class rep. is that another reason? or is it because the class's friendship level is discarded from everyone's feeling?

money and family seems to be the same thing. at least i got my mother to nag with. she complains a little to me, i complains to her, just lesser stress at least to all other stuffs.

OK, here is it, Life is just like a Cup of Coffee (CS's Style):

A freshly brewed coffee will be emptied one day
just as
A new born baby will pass away one day

If you brew your own Coffee, you can add more sugar to it
just as
if you got a choice, you can make your life easy

but if you order coffee from a restaurant, you cannot control the taste, to be sweet or bitter
just as
many people couldn't choose their lives, to be easy or hard

In many places, you can choose to add more cream to your coffee to make it brighter, in colour
just as
In many ocassions, you can think more positive, to make your life brighter

Some people add a little sugar and cream, taste it, and than, add more, to find the best taste
just as
Some people take one step at a time, carefully, trying to get the best out of their life.

Many people drinks coffee that are too bitter or too sweet, but they still drink coffee
just as
many people feel pain, do things they regreted, but they still move on.

Recently, coffee comes with many decorations
just as
recently, innovation is the key of life.

If anyone got any new 'Just As' or if i made mistakes above, please let me know.

19 weeks to go! (Attachment in Jurong)

2009-08-08T13:37:00.003+08:00

At work, it's pretty interesting, programming with happy and sad moments. C# and Java, GUI and Web Services. I encountered this problem, C# DateTime attribute, cannot convert to Java Date Attribute when I send data from GUI to Web Service. any visitors know what i can do, just leave a message somewhere. I had been very free in my free time and got less thing to do. and, this is my current Web Hosting, using Google Site.

https://sites.google.com/site/2dcryption/Home

I currently have a Basic Guessing Game on it. wondering what i can program next. What i've learned isn't much about games, so, if anyone got any idea that needs to be programmed, let's see if i can do it. i was thinking if i want to put up a Barcode Reader, in Java, up onto it. but, this program i have, cannot work on many phones. And it is manuel taking of pictures. New Stuffs out there is all about Automatic. So, unless requested, i will not upload the Barcode Reader.

It seems like i really need something to do but i don't know what. If someone got any good ideas, just let me know. thank you.

Before i get any request from anyone, i guess i can take some time to think of, what can be done, and what can't. Just because I joined another class's Class Outing, does that mean I am abandoning my class? It's not the problem of 'my class never ask me out for an outing', it's the problem of 'words that are said, can't be taken back easily'. and when people hear what you say, it's hard to cancel off the feeling of what we understand in the words.

I think this post is long enough. I think can only put up my 'life is like a cup of coffee' another time. (Laugh) i haven't write it down though, only have a thought of it.

Super bored sunday. No mood do homework...so..

2009-08-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

Like in the title, i am rather bored today and i am not in the mood to do my own research. lazy, i would say. so, i went to youtube, looking for things. Found this 3 versions of the same song. i wonder which one people love most..

the dance

the girls

the original

first time post video, hope things goes well.

An outing

2009-08-01T23:28:00.003+08:00

Week 3 of Attachment over...end of month. got paid.(opps. shouldn't have said). And of cause, outing with friends. C175 people and Dr.Yap (C175 care person). suspposed to have 16 or more this day. but, a lot op out last minute. so, it's around 11 people that day......Aston at cathey for dinner and ben and jerry for dessert...and, most interesting of all, punishments. As we hate the coconut ice cream so much...so...this is my share......

And we really, really hated the coconut taste so much, we will never have it ever...ever again...(Laugh)...

Week 2's ending. (SIP)

2009-07-26T11:17:00.004+08:00

Alright, another week ended. 2 down 21 to go?......O well, things are always in a mess. It's always annoying when you are wrong but you don't know why. in reality, sometimes i don't really care, but! in programming, i am always concern why did i get some stupid errors. sometimes it's my own error, nowadays, i don't know what the error message is talking about!

As mentioned in previous post, no camera phones (no cameras of cause), no personal laptops, thumbdrives, harddisk etc. So, weekends, comes and most people are so happy they can use their camera phones again. I heard there will be thumbdrives checking, so, it's not save to bring anymore, so......more and more annoying, i would say...doing something that sounds easy but i encounter hard problems. Web Services, with Java. And of cause, the whole project combines more Java technologies that is making my head spins...

Sadly, Week 2, i got sick(Running nose + Sore Throat) whole week. NO FEVER!! No chance of H1N1...Friday, Jess brought me Strepsils! It's a great help to my throat. and after Consulting my home doctor(my mother), I got the One-Eye guy - Liang Teh.

Althought today, i running nose is only better, not cured, i will still go to work, tomorrow! If i am not there, Grace will have a big headache and she will be all alone, looking at her errors. Errors which i also don't understand why is it wrong...

Maybe i should get more sleep after lunch...hopely the way of Sleeping cures all sickness......zzz

One week of Terror

2009-07-18T02:49:00.003+08:00

As instructed, reached ST Electronics - Jurong East at 9am, not sharp, a bit late. o well, 8 people is too hard to handle. First day, orientation, and 8 of us splitted into 3 groups, as told through email, my group have 4 people and i am the only guy in this group. Jesslyn, Grace and Huiling are my groupmates. While Joel and Dave went Sentosa, QiHui and Melvin working at level 2 and we work at level 3.

Day One Terror: No Camera Phones allowed in office! (Incluing, no personal laptops, thumbdrive, harddisk)

Day Two Terror: What? Supervisor actually conducted lecture? o well, slept with my eyes open most of the time (Travelling is a energy killer)

Day Three Terror: Documentation + Try code from sample program. Read Documentation = Sleep within 5 minutes. Try code? i Don't Fr***ing understand!

Day Four: smoothen up a bit, starting to get use to sleeping on bus. understand more on what i need to understand after more lectures, one to one tutorial actually.

Day Five: YaKult Day? what the heck? seems slack, pretty fun this day. because we are slacking most of the time, trying codes at some point of time though. but, after understanding, Coding makes me awake! lol

Allowance, 500? let's hope 250 goes to my Family Business. although it's nothing personal, it's only business.

Satuarday comes! Terror, although i totally lost mood for MCSD, it's time to represent. my teammate is so eager to re-present, it's annoying because it's hard to reject...OVERNIGHT + OVERTIME FOR MCSD!!! @S$*OLE!!! (Not scolding anyone in particular)... what a terrible week........don't wish me luck nor health. wish for my death. (Rise my cup) (God)LW...

I got it!

2009-07-04T19:01:00.002+08:00

Student internship programme (SIP), provided by Temasek Polytechnic. I am allocated with a company! ST Electronics (Singapore Technology electronics). Jurong East Street 21. Well, it's Jurong East, but it is at the west side of the country where i lives in the East side of the country. good thing is a lot of people will be going to jurong east, bad thing is, it's inconvient for most of us.

Next thing is, my tag board is missing. well, actually i borrowed it for a school project and they requested for the tagboard to be clean, so sorry people who wants to leave a message, but don't worry, Blogger provides a 'Comment' function. this is where you people can leave a message for the time being.

Well, nothing much is going nowadays, just that almost all guys in C173 is having their Major Project first, which have already started. Jeryl, Eugene and Yvonne's morale is high as their supervisor Dr Yap gave them a full description of what is expected of them. Gavin and JiaMin seems good. although their relationship wasn't very good since i don't know when. JW,BR and Matez, one of the best friendship team grouped. i hope for the best for their MP. because Samual and Aaron, from the info i am getting, aren't very good with Voice over IP and they are suppose to Proof of Concepts for Avaya IP Telephony Applications..well, just as i read it, Application? that means, they are about to handle Java (To connect to database) and WML (Simple IP telephone program uses this language)... good luck.

While C176 teams is having an interesting MP. M-Learning for C176 programmer Michael and FaceBook CareGroup for Elaine (Chan)...both are under Sam-Tang Boon Wee, who descript himself as Java Pro. Well, hope they are using Java and can get more help from Sam.

From the name list of Major Project, C175, only have one team dealing with major this term. which is the Team of Zax, WeiXiong and Guan Peng. although the team don't seems strong, i believe C175 will create some miracles. With GP and WX's presentation skills (Rated as their killer ability, as from what i know). and of cause, no one in C175 is useless, that's a fact that no one can avoid so, C175, show the school what you are made of! (hmm..should i support my class more?...)

M-Commerce Presentation should be 9th july, Thurday, while 13th july is the start of my internship programme. TP life is going to end, sooner than i am expecting......

After the messy and corupted term

2009-06-27T12:06:00.003+08:00

Although the term is over, i still have one presentation left to do. M-Commerce. Even though i presented on Wednesday, 24/06/09, the teacher gave us a chance to re-present and my teammate accepted the offer. And so, i have one presentation left to do, on 9th July.

Next, 2Dcrytion...we believed our idea till the end, yet we lost to 7, at least, teams. Reasons of losing, 'Our technology used is not fanciful enough. So, remember, in the future, if anyone you know is going to join Sun- Open Jive,

1. Use Fanciful technology.

2. Prototype, make one that is view-able, don't need to be the real thing.

3. When asked, 'Do you have a working prototype?' you CAN answer, 'Well, due to TIME constraint and NO available technology, we DON'T have a prototype.'.

4. Make sure you have colourful PowerPoint Slides to aid you in your presentation.

5. To win the Open Jive, you need at least 3 'Attension get-ters' in your presentation. Eg. 'May i ask (question), 'Next, we shall present a role play', Joke (be sure others laugh, don't laugh yourself)

Next thing to talk about, school. very, a...Bitter? after the competition, the 3 of us are almost broken down, yet, our extension to submission was only extended by...2 days. and, all 3 seperate teams we are in, aren't Programmingly Strong. so, our programming stress continues. luckily, all 3 of our teams done pretty well, they got their teamwork together (Except for one guy). not mentioning the name.

Tourism Informatics, was completed on Tuesday. 23/06. Although i made two last minute meetings, we did well. C173 MIA master aka best programmer in class, cooperated with me. the presentation was, i would say, not bad. at least we say our stuffs, get things done, Dr.Yap wasn't too angry about us or anything. cool. VoIPSA, i didn't get my written test paper back, but, o well, who cares, as long as i know, i pass. (No one told me anything), but all i need to know is that i pass the subject. And so, Year 3, the Two Electives, are completed. (should be)...

Well, as many people haven't complete their Tourism Informatics and M-Commerce presentation, i shall put tips on the two Presentation below. Based on what i know...

For Tourism Informatics.

-Dr.Yap.
--What is your target resolution? (Pixels of screen for mobile phone)
--What hardware and software will you be using? (If not covered in your presentation)
--How long do you need to develop the whole system? (If not covered)
--What Considerations have you think about when designing the application.
--What is the cost of your project?
--How do you come out with the cost of your project? (Meaning, what you spent th money on)
--Can your application run on different mobile platforms? Why it can run?
---Mobile Platform, 'Windows Mobile', 'Symbian', or maybe 'Nokia phones', 'sony ericsson phones'

-Simon (if he is around, be extremely careful.)***
--What is your best feature in your application? (Most important, choose only 1)
--What i your least important feature? (In another words, which feature may not be used by the users)
--(If there is payment) i will be sending my credit card number 'through the air'. how you ensure security?
*Well, simon's brain power is pretty high. so, he can come out with more types of questions than above. when i present, he wasn't around, so, this is the most i can provide. and lastly for simon
--Rule Number 1. Simon is always right.
--Don't argue with Simon. refer to rule number 1. or you will suffer

-Dr. Yap's friend. (Not sure what is the name, SORRY!!)
--People can now use PC or notebook to book Flight, restaurants. why MUST i use your Application? (Well, standard answer is 'Mobile Phone can let you book anytime anywhere')
--Any customers tested your application and felt that it is good to use? (Killer! testing point is how you react to it. how you behave yourself, how you answer)
--(I got this question) Can the tourist continue using your application after they return to their country?
---(Con't) How do you ensure they uninstall the application? -If they continue using the application, your server, one day, will not be able to handle the amount of user.

-Most questions are depending on what you presented or not presented, so, questions above may not help you. Unless you pick up the plan that of 'Not presenting above, let them ask, and answer the questions easily'.

M-Commerce. I didn't see other people's presentation, so i can't really help much here.
-Mr Tok.
--What is your killer feature?
--*Anything you wrote in your report. User Infrastructure (Mobile Phone), Network Infrastructure (Wi-Fi,, GPRS), MiddleWare(WAP, Oracle 9i Application Server)
--(If your idea is Mobile Application) Where do i get this Application from? download?
--How do you market your product? Business Case (This, i don't know what exactly he looking for)
--*He will be looking for, how you use your limited time to present, how you present (Can you tell the teachers your idea, how clearly)
--Coding Part, (from my experience) Mr Tok will ask, "Show me one part of the coding that is done by you. Explain to me line by line what you have done."
--Or, he can say 'Wow, i find this line of code, interesting. (Point to you that line) explain what have you written.

For ms.Ho. i am totally not sure what she will ask. just make sure the logic of your presentation is right. all i can say...End.

End.

Week 8 starting...

2009-06-07T19:23:00.003+08:00

Week 8, basically first week of term break. too bad, i am packed with schedules. free time? it's all about projects. dear readers, i am sorry i missed out last week's post. i blog supposed to be on a weekly basis. (Fake). Last weekend, i rushed and finished VoIPSA project, to none MWC people, It's, Voice over Internet Protocol System and Application (VoIP SA). The subject is basically about talking over the internet with voice calls or video calls. the project was programming an application (program) for a IP telephone. which is a phone that uses the Internet to send voice over.

Well, after i completed my VoIPSA application, last week was...great, actually. I visited C175 from Monday to Wednesday and ate dinner with WeiYi and Grace in all three days. I am being a Lamppost? oops. i didn't want to. but, talking to them is always about joy and laughter. Thursday, C173 people asked me to go to school on friday to help them with their application. o well, i got my stuffs to do, alright?......but Thursday and Friday night, i helped everyone's dear Yutong and her class (just a few of them) with their application, of the same subject. well, it's good to talk to yutong again. like long lost friend, but in fact, we are in the same course, just different class.

Friday night was pretty fun. helped, part of, yutong's class from around 7+ or 8+. project dued at 2359, but i left school at 0050 the next day. (Laugh). it's always fun to meet friendly people, and of cause, because of this subject, most people in all 4 classes of Mobile and Wireless Computing 07 april intake knows me. by name, 3 classes, by face, Yutong's class (C174). popular? hope not.

but, i heard that there is no bus home at 0050...well, i went to Alvin's house for the night. he live just opposite my school! and guess what? 0050, the time i left school...i was earlier than alvin to reach the playground below his house. he wasn't home from church. (Laugh)

Well, because talking to Alvin is actually more fun than talking to YuTong, we both almost missed our sleep. Alvin needs to wake up early on satuarday, that's why i was so #$%^& tired on saturday. In anyway, it's over. Open Jive source code submited, cleared VoIPSA, left with Open Jive Report + Presentation, MCSD prototype and presentation, TRIF report and presentation. TRIF report.....well, let's hope that someone don't hand in late. Or it will be like Fernandez said. 'You are sooooooooooo Dead' (Laugh)...

Deadman walking, on the day of presentation, i suppose.

Amazing Week, week 5 in school

2009-05-22T11:58:00.002+08:00

Woo, 5 weeks down, 5 weeks to go, i am having 2 presentation at Week 10, after the 2 weeks 'holiday'. with inverted comas because, that 2 weeks aren't totally holiday. it's also the last in my Poly life. The best thing in school this week, i would say is VoIP, interview completed, Application is left to do. not to forget, coming week's VoIP written Test, my calculator will be coming back for re-service...(Laugh). VoIP had been going smoothly, Hello World app is easy because, the source code is given, all we got to do is...Kopi-O and Pasta. (Copy and paste).

SIP/MP or IP. this thing had been going on throughout the term. and of cause, for people who are not in Temasek Polytechic,
SIP = Student Internship Program, Attachment
MP = Major Project, Final Year Project
IP = Industry Project, which is doing the Final Year project in the attachment company.
Simon, the lecturer responsible for attachment, chat twice with me this week. recommending me to go for IP. well, i am not confidnet in myself, so i still prefer to go for SIP/ MP. SIP may be alone, but MP is with WeiYi and Grace. Simon, "Wow, you are willing not to go IP for the seek of your friends. you are very good"...is it? i thouht a normal person will be more selfish and force me to do things for myself. (laugh) Mr Tok came later. Simon told Mr Tok about it and ...Mr Tok, "That's the way, man!"...a...really? o well...the next day came by, simon came to test me. Simon, "You see, there are companies that are looking for students for IP. if i don't send you, there will be a problem. since we got the student, and we are not sending them to IP......" well, i truly thinks that he is testing my resolve. but, i am determined to do it for WeiYi and Grace! Simon continued, "Maybe i should also send the two for IP, so you wouldn't feel bad." (Laugh) interesting!

MCSD, not sure if my lads are visiting this blog, but let's throw some complains. Naming my team as, Y, E and N. Y hasn't been contributing since the project started, E proposed the first idea and the team is now following E's idea after many editing and discussion. N accepted the idea after deciding using my Cards Selection method. Y, accepting everything from the start. he had been just following the majority. So, i would say, Y isn't contributing. I recommended Y to go for interview as i thought, the 4 of us don't link well. Y than asked for accompany. well, if someone is with him, he will be the worst contributor to the team. But, he asked N to go along with him...N, "See my mood"...o well, that's N for you. and of cause, i am worrying about my Competition stuffs, so i request not to get me involved for now.

next day, tmes flies, E request to go for interview in the place of Y. Y happily throwaway his responsiblity. but, E also request for N to go for interview. N, contributed in the idea, and will Super Contribute when Programming comes. N agreed and the team happily dispersed for the day.

last day, N, famous for MIA, did it again!.. switching off his phone too. So, as my competition members are taking breaks, i am free to replace N. i was thinking to go for interview with E. but, this day, not sure what kind of Devil is Smiling, E throws away her responsiblity and ask Y and i to go for the interview.........

Currently, this Team...
N - MIA after agreeing
E - Last minute TaiJi (Push away responsiblity)
Y - NOT CONTRIBUTING!

Cool! i am loving it......ya right, whatever.....what kind of life is going on. Amazing, i would say.

Progress

2009-05-16T12:50:00.002+08:00

Everything moved on to a next level! Except, for my friendship with C176, my current classmates. Envision, put up a good fight but they moved on. good job, after your hardwork. but now, it's our turn! Basic System of 'Decode 2d barcode than adding into Phone Book' is completed. currently, i am still going on the testing stage of the system. which decoded text to add to phone book, which text not to. bla bla...

Competition stuffs are To the Limit, coming Friday will be the announcement for the shortlisted teams, of Java Open Jive. Will we be able to continue, or will i get knocked out in the first round again? i got to tell you, i believe in this idea. but, will the people and the judges believe in it, i don't know. no matter what happen, i want to finish at least the prototype of the whole system.

Currently, i am using my mother's phone to debug my codes. not a very good progress currently, but i am still moving forward, one step at a time. i am feeling guility for taking her phone, making her use a PDA from china. which, not against china stuffs but, is pretty messed up. charger don't seems to charge the battery when charging, ringtones with no sounds...etc.

hurry up and get this bugs over with...i want to go a million miles forward. WA!!! Reports of Tourism and VoIP is handed in, what's left of Tourism is Programming! what's left in VoIP is, also, Programming! WOOO!!! But, MCSD, we will still be having Proposal (Report), presentation and PROGRAMMING!!! thats what i am talking about! the life of programming! wahahahahaha.

with my bugs on competition stuff, not breifed Program on Tourism, Not learned language on VoIP and incomplete proposal on MCSD......it seems like i am pretty free today... (Laugh stupidly) of cause, i need to solve the bug on my competition stuffs......

Jar Ken!! With a cup of NesCafe Coffee by my side, let's get this bug over with!!! HA!!!!
(Back to Netbeans IDE)....

Downfall

2009-05-10T18:16:00.002+08:00

zzz...no more power...Open Jive, planned to use Google Code - Zxing, known as Zebra Crossing, but the sample app, after trying on 6 phones, only one phone can run this sample app. but this phone is not mine, so i can't continue working with it at home. other than that, VoIP report, i can't even do much about my part. although it is known as a huge topic...yao zhong got his part ready, 5 pages with one page references. which almost lead to half the report done by him alone. if i can't get things up, i am doom. other than tourism, i must prepare for another badly done subject...Tourism, not yet started on Report 2, another 15 pages. but, will try to work it out. some how.

good deals happens with MCSD, where scenario is decided. more or less. didn't know what makes two people who were arguing, get to along, but things work out, happy. but, i still waiting for my part to start, so that i can do something for them.

VoIP must comes first, i cannot let this team down! Jar ken!.....no power to give a shout......tired... want to die.......tourism comes second, COMPETITION comes third?! what's wrong with me?! @#$%^&*&^%$ WA!!! i want to contribute more to competition stuffs!!! wa...

and of cause, MCSD, which is dued after term break is least priority...Wa!! I want more programming!!!..although valerie is going to find me to help her with her SSSD, programming......

o well, what priority will that be...?

Week 2's ending.

2009-05-01T22:20:00.002+08:00

Another week of school had pass. i would say Mobile Commerce System and development? i hate the theory part, enjoying the Practical, Lab lesson. The subject uses JDeveloper, programming language used, JSP, Java Server Pages. Things are going TO THE LIMIT!! Sadly, assignment will be out next week......(Waiting...)

Next, i will talk about Voice over IP System Application, VoIPSA. To learn about video/voice call over the internet. Case study is out...but, yet to distribute workload between the 3 of us. Naming, Nghi, Yao Zhong(Ernest) and myself. asked Lab tutor, martins for tips, but, NOTHING IS GOING ON HERE!......

thirdly, Tourism Informatics. Help tourism using IT. Assignment 1, 15 pages report. well, i handed in 13 pages. didn't meet expectation, but a little over my own expectation. although, still, nothing to be happy about...Assignment 2, will also be individual, out next week, hope things goes well......

The busiest Event i am having in school now, Java Open Jive! Team of, Jun Wei, Wei Yi and myself. Jobs for the week end, JW -> breif proposal on what will we be doing. JW + WY -> Learn Java Swing. Myself -> Learn Java 2 MicroEdition and play around with NetBeans IDE... although i had learned J2ME for 2 weeks last semester...it's so tiring to learn things from this book. hardly doing anything for too long...spend one night, reading the book to re-do what i did last semester...but at least, i finished a few programs and run-able. so, monday, i have something to show JW, WY, Sng and Sam...

Jar-KEN!!! (To the Limit) Programming Fires me up!!

1st week of year 3...

2009-04-24T13:14:00.002+08:00

writing down to remember the past. Entered C176 class for this semester. Timetable setted to, each day of school, we will have Mobile Commerce System and Development, therefore, everyday, we will see Mr Tok. Mr Tok is someone i respect, he is the guy who gives me a target after i got into polytechic. In year 1, when i am so lost, he asked me 'do you know what job you want to have when you gradulate from temasek poly?' Well, i don't know the answer. he susgested 'why don't you be a Starhub Programmer?'...well, just to aim for Starhub, isn't right, so, my target of being a programmer came about...

First 3 day of school was rather bored. no one talks to me from the class, other than known people like Nghi, Yao Zhong, Xiang Yu... 4 day, lionel, i suppose, joke a little about the Report, to be handed in next week, friday 9am. over all, i can say that the class don't seems to be friend, i also cannot help with it. like i always said, we can't expect everything to go your way.

3 subjects this term. Tourism Informatics -> 15 pages report, due next friday. Voice over IP system application and Mobile Commerce System Development, assignment not out yet. Tourism, individual. VOIPSA and MCSD, i suppose i will be teaming with Nghi and Yao Zhong...

Thursday, met Leewei, Yingyin, jess and junwei to meet Sng. about competition. after i got knocked out in the first round of Imagine Cup, now i am selected to be in Java Open Jive. hope this time, i got a better result. i am not a person who can handle my own morale. if this time things don't goes well..no morale do anything already......

Java Open Jive Topic. Change Tomorrow...ya, right...how to change? Junwei worked out something in one night, i will be looking into it as well.

Let's work, TO THE LIMIT!!!

The Beginning of Year 3 in Temasek Polytechic

2009-04-19T10:54:00.002+08:00

After one semester after yy called me to watch Katekyo Hitman Reborn, i started watching in the holidays. The basic story line is that the main character Sawada Tsunayoshi, aka 'useless' tsuna, got a Family Tutor out from no where. Family Tutor = Katekyo. And this tutor looks like a baby in vest and tie, not to forget, he is also an hitman, Killer also an Mafia. And for the anime title, Reborn, is the name of this tutor. Reborn is on a mission to train Tsuna to a Mafia leader.

Fav. Character, Sasagawa Ryohei, Tsuna's lover's older brother. Boxer, his fav.line, To the limit! 'Jar ken!'

Year 3, after going to semester breifing, i got info about what is going to happen. if happen you didn't attend, this is the gist of it. 'In year 3.1, Term A, we will be only taking 3 subjects, unless you had failed other subjects. after term A, we will have 2 weeks of holiday, 1 week of Pre-SIP breifing. When July 6th, SIP start, most of the students will be expected NOT to be in school. And after July 6th, there will not be any holidays for at least 25 weeks, (15 weeks SIP minimum, 10 weeks MP), which is about 6 months?'...

Next, the Timetable...i complained and complained not about the subjects or time schduling...just that, after i left C173, i am leaving C175 now...both classes are good classes and feel like at home with them. even if i just sit in their class, i feel GOOD! Now, the class i know least about, C176... Known Thanh Nghi and Ernest...others, i don't even know who they are! (Laugh)... although for a minute, i wanted to be friend with this class, there's only 7 weeks to communicate with them. an after 7 weeks, i will be going for SIP... will i really be able to make friends with these people? or will i suffer the same fate as Ernest? Ernest, "That class ah? they are 'Anti-me' de lor"...

Major Project, MP. At first, i was worried who will i team with, the next minute, i was recruited by Grace and Wei Yi. Hmm, ya, i may be a lambpost over there, but...at least they are good people. Grace normal group, Jesslyn and YY are aiming for IP, combination of Major Project and SIP (Student internship programme), which takes minimum 25 weeks, maximum 35 weeks. As for Wei Yi's group, (I think..), the usual, there are 4 people, WeiJian, ZhenTeng, Timothy and Wei Yi. but, MP can only have 3 per group. that's why one of them must leave...

But, to end this post, the Course Manager also said this, "This is the last chance for you to score A ah...so, don't fail these subjects or your SIP and MP will be affected"...JAR KEN!!! Let's work to the limit!!! [Jarken Straight Punch!], [Jarken uppercut!!]....

Badminton, Holiday Special.

2009-03-22T22:11:00.005+08:00

Saturday, yesterday, Bedok Community centre, Sharon vs CK vs CS.

three people, three hours, swapping teams here and there. no matter what, missing one people, a missing gap. like majong, 3 miss 1. will there be someone good enough to fill this gap? hope i can find one soon. Grace, CY and Marcus cannot make it for this special fixture...sad......

Sunday, today. New Equipments ++Upgrade. Wahahahaa
two New Rackets, 6new shuttles, one new racket holder cloth.

......OK...next, i shall turn back the time, to the thing i don't feel like posting. my exam results.

EBM C+ (Thanks, group members, you brought me this far)
CMSK2 C+ (Thanks C175 for taking care of me)
SWEN B (Thanks group members for all hardwork)
SSSD B (Thanks, another term with a programming subject B)
MSYD B+ (Ya...like SSSD, can't break my Programming Subjects Curse of B)
MSID C+ (Great...-_-...i thought was better than this...)

GPA 2.91. Back to 2.91.......
Year 1.1 -> 2.51
Year 1.2 -> 2.91
Year 2.1 -> 2.93
Year 2.2 -> 2.91......
my GPA 2 curse......or am i just a C+ student?...zzz...

Holiday...outings!

2009-03-12T11:57:00.006+08:00

For this week, pretty fun, although i am sick now, in the end... Monday and tuesday of the week, i went to C175' class chalet. Monday was the first day, almost all came and settle down. Lunch, wx, zax, yy, jess and i went to eat chicken rice, i almost got sick of the chicken...=X

Dinner till morning, it's all deep fried food, seaweed chicken, popcorn chicken and nugget except for Beehoon.hmm...is it spelled this way?... wahahha... a good day for me on monday, played big 2, won big 2, played majong won majong. ($10)...

Tuesday was...bad in the daylight, fun in the moonlight. wahahaha. Tuesday, played big2, lose big2, play majong continue my losing streak. around evening, the sky got dark, but Dave joined in the Big2 battle. started not being the weakest link...(Sorry dave...><) at night, BBQ, something chalet must have. helped Fire Starter Zax by fanning the fire. i didn't do a bad job, i guess. Sng isn't around. didn't got invited, but i thought he was...-_-..

Wednesday, C173 Seoul Garden Visit....in the morning, my throat hurts...than, somehow it stops hurting. in the middle of our Seoul Garden Feast, my throat hurts again..until now, i still feeling the pain...although only 9 appears for the seoul garden feast...pretty good, i guess...that's the most we can get from our class.

Pictures i took. not a lot, but...

Bo's Dessert...No taste (From him) wahahaha
This is......TS + Valerie + Yvonne Special Soup.
with ice-cream, jelly, orange in it?

Far view of the special soup.
New dish in town. 2 Eggs with prawn fillings
and fried jelly on the side.
I bet no one want to try. lol

Jie Wei and Jeryl

Tuesday morning, guys were playing basketball

and girls are asleep.

i got bored...so....

The end...

Holiday, listening to songs

2009-03-03T09:55:00.011+08:00

one of those days, before my examination is over, took my brother's 1TB Harddisk and took whatever songs i can. Wahahahahaha.

Some songs got my attention.

I Wanna Go to a Place. - Gundam Seed Destiny Songs.

BackStreet boys - Never Gone
- Siberia.
- I still... - 'How are you now? Are you still the same or did you change somehow? what do you do? at this very moment when i think of you...'
- Climbing the Wall - 'i don't want to know, the reason why i, can't stay forever like this.'

Backstreet boys - unbreakable
- One in a million - 'wish i could tell her, you're one in a million, but, you never even look my way.'

Brillant Green -Ash like Snow. (Gundam 00 Season 1, second theme.)

I also encounter some old songs, brings back some sadness. (laugh stupidly)

Linkin Park. Meteora
Don't Stay. - 'i don't need you, anymore. don't want to be ignored. i don't need one more day, if you wasted me away...'
Faint - 'i can't faith, the way i did before'
Numb - 'every step that i take is another mistake, to you.'
Breaking the habits - 'i don't know what worth fighting for, or why i have to scream...'

Linkin Park - Minutes to midnight
What i've done - 'i got regrets, from the truth, of a thousand lies.'
Leave out all the rest - 'when my time come, forget the wrongs that i've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. don't re-send me, when you feeling empty, keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest...'
Valentine's day - 'i used to be my own protection, but not now'

Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory
Runaway - 'i want to run away, never say good bye, i want to know the true, instead i wondering why, i want to know the answer, no more lies, i want to shut the door, and open up my mind.'
with you - it's true, the way i feel, what's promised, by your face. the sound of your voice, printed on my memory, even if you're not with me, i'm with you!'
in the end - what will eventually be, will eventually be, memory of our time,

No Vacancy - Heal Me, I'm Heartsick... <- one of the songs i always listened to when i am sad. (listening to it makes thing worst. (Laugh))

Digimon Theme. Butterfly.

国境之南 - 范逸臣

hmm...for now, i guess i will just put these good songs here...lol... this semester, 2.2, is really happy in school and sad outside school...school may be rough, tough but! nothing compared to what's on the outside world. facts of life, Good Friends are people to harm you! just as 'what are friends for?' answer -> Betray.

Holiday...

2009-03-01T13:53:00.005+08:00

O well, this marks the end of my Year 2 in Temasek Polytechic. times flies as fast as a it could. i am not going to talk about my exam, not going to talk about my dad. no link? maybe..wahahahaa

First time in my life, after the last exam paper, i got no mood to smile, no mood to laugh, no mood to go out with friends!...part of growing up? maybe...after the exam, i Registered my class, except for 5, to the Service DNA Workshop. crazy idiot(Me) needs to press the ticket machine to get 14 'Payment' tickets...and of cause, i am helping 14 people to register (includes myself).

I was standing there, registering, while the receptionist is sitting, turning around, taking documentations, finally, i paid 287 in one shot. lol. luckily not cash. 20.50 per person. o well, at least got three good people to be good enough to pay me before hand. Thanks a lot, Jiamin, Yvonne and Valerie...

the Workshop is Tomorrow, 2nd March, 9am - Evening, not sure of timing, room IT 4-5-90, things needed to bring, Basic Stationary. pens or pencils...

after leaving the One Stop Service Center, placed the recipts to Mr Sng's Pigeon Hole and Home i go. slept from 11am+ to 2+. woke by the rain, banging on my brother's room's windows. it's loud. lol. That whole day was dead. only feel like sleeping after sleeping. so, i took another day break. friday, slacked at home with totally no mood to play games. sitting in front of my computer, not even feeling like Rocking on my Stationary Chair. In conclusion, i wasted my friday...truly, wasted another day in my life. lol

Saturday. most people woul be happy to go out on this day. o well, i had a guest in my house. so, didn't went out, but to remain in-house. Special Guest, CY. you can say, if he don't need help, he wouldn't come and find me. But, at least i can help my friends alright. Compared to a special Hidden Someone, who known as my friend, yet wouldn't find me even if he/she got trouble/s.

CY shared his views with me towards daily Human Life. a wonderful guest to have. Yet as sad as the weather on that day to see him off. it was rainy, just as a crying kid to see off someone. o well, wouldn't be too bad, because he will help me whenever i need help. (i hope).

Today, a Sunday, brother going for his last......change of guards, because he will be out of National service soon. while i...o well...still not much mood to be playing game whole day, like i used to. so, will i be able to find a job? let's go out for a walk later. 3pm+ maybe? for a walk, to settle down my rush feelings...

well i don't even know i am happy or sad now, knowing that friends i know for one semester are so worried about me. they are even more worried about me than my class...-_-...so, thanks dudes! i will better soon...

The path of the warrior, only goes FORWARD!

2009-02-20T18:07:00.002+08:00

'title' was used as Dynasty Warriors 6, Zhang Liao's victory speech.

Forward, CS! if i stay at this location any longer, there will be...no future, like NgTC said? sorry dude, no maths this time for a no future.
*Ng, my secondary 3-5 Form Teacher. fav.Line 'No maths no Future ah!'

trying to fix myself for awhile. after SWEN test on wednesday, went for bowling. surprisingly, i got totally no FORM on that day! both games didn't reach 100, second game, didn't reach 50. amazing! didn't know i can rot myself to such an amazing level. SWEN Test was good. Meeting Gavin before the test was a good idea. 98% of what we studying came out. prepared well, i guess.

EBM, final battle for this semester. but, one thing at a time. THursday and friend(Today) got some Imagine Cup meeting. Thursday, two teams in my class sent one representative each. God and i, met with sam and sng. First, sng decided to go through god's proposal. i'm fine with that, God's team emailed to sng anyway. after going through god's proposal, my turn. fun thing is, god got to go. so, i alone face two lecturers. cool! didn't try it before. (Laugh idioticly). o well, because i only did abit, today, friday, i was told to go back with my teammate. teammate, yes, just one. therefore, meaning, equals to, 2 men team! Two C173 representative, dude!

Today's report. partner late for half an hour. sng angry. went through draft report again. more ideas came from those 2. i am, worker, lowest level of all, only know how to follow some of their instructions. not all, not most. i am too weak...

of cause, the final part of this post. One weird motivation i found. i saw an email from Care Person Sng, also the same sng mentioned above. Email is sent to the class. the class i seperate myself from. Email said that our class needs to register for a workshop, how? go back to school, One Stop Service Center and Pay $20.50. the weird motivation i found is, suddenly, i feel like helping most of the people in my class to register this shit. so, i mass sent SMS to them! lol. not sure if all SMS reach their targets because, i don't think i am having all up-to-date phone numbers. Currently i am having, Fan, Jeryl, Jiamin, Eugene, Gavin and Sam in my 'Help to Register list'. so, if any C173 pass by here, remember to tell me if you need me to help you with it! CS at your service. this time...not sure why, but i am helping...

Troubles don't solve themselves, so i'll be trying. bit by bit. someday, i will succeed......

Dealing with barrier before a test.

2009-02-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

Today, the day that marks the end of SWEN provided i pass, of cause.

studying, totally not seriously, because i can't concentrate. yesterday, studied one round of all notes, breifly. today, read on objectives of all lecture notes. and i got distracted. distracted by the event, as spammed on tagboard, not by the person*. so, i went to see a few blogs. Saw a blog with a new blogskin, saw yy happy valentine's post and a joke of a day and also visited fiona's blog.

*Sorry, Sharon. although you suggested to me that, to forget a person, i must not care if she online, if she sms ms, if she talks to me, not to care what she blogged. i visited...i felt that i need to face this problem, somehow.

surprisingly, my heart don't sink when i saw this happy couple in fiona's blog. than, i remembered why am i not angry with fiona, why am i mad of someone...

i once said that 'what kind of man, cannot forgive a girl's wrong doing?'. than, today i ask, 'do a man, worth being called a man, when he cannot even forgive his good friend?'...should i put this line into my life? should i be blaming myself for not being forgiving or should i lessen my burden by continue blaming him? in this complicated situation, can i even explain to someone to ask for help? like i had sent an email, i am on a course to recovery. but, if this barrier that stops me from trusting a friend exist, will there be a day, where i can forgive him and trust others?

zzz. i got so distracted by these things while i got a test 3 hours later. an report to hand in by 14 hours. research and development to do within 14 hours as well.

hmm...now, now. people normally blogs at night and end their post by going to sleep. how should i end this post? great...another stupid question stands in my path...

O well, i guess i will go to school earlier to stop thinking about the barrier. (Laugh) running away from facts, eh? maybe that's what i can do for now...

The World...my world...

2009-02-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

How the world ends with you?
when you ended, pass away, your world stopped as well. you wouldn't be able to know how the world spins anymore. when you open up your heart, your world grow larger, you know more things around you, you get to know more about the world. when you concentrate your heart on your surrounds, your world become smaller.

my world,
- still spins just like my heart beats.
- is small. i ignore the rest and concentrate what i am having
- ...it was a world full of trust. leaving in a peaceful Singapore, there were full of trustworthy people around the area.

but recently, my world got locked. no pain, no gain? no lost, no regret. No win, no lose? while i am losing a lot, winning little..
Father headed for USA today. approximately a year. kind of sad...seeing my father's friend's little boy cried. me too, wanted to do the same.(Sorry, no tears for me.)
Lessen friendship all over the place.
1. Childhood dudes, Desmond and Edmond? they seems happy but busy. didn't contact them for awhile...(Sorry)
2. Primary school friends? no contact ever since i got into Chai Chee Sec.(Sec 2). suddenly, missed them so much, really want to see them again and listen to their stories.
3. Secondary school friends...lost a guy i trusted. don't know how to trust him again. avoid hearing his happenings, lend to one less topics with other secondary school friends....
4. because of my father's leave and secondary school friends, i have totally no mood to fix the jigsaw puzzle of Louis V......sorry...

it seems like, through time, i can't handle any friendship...not even starting to talk about a relation. not even close to possible...like the olden days, loner till the end. i suppose that is how i wish to continue and end my world.

Fun after internal shouting

2009-02-08T00:09:00.003+08:00

Shouted, deep in my heart. but, this is what i got after shouting. I have drunk your cup of apologise, tea...milk tea...Iced Milk tea of TP design school. i drink up the cup, so, meaning, i want to forgive and forget. but, sorry dudes. i still can't bring up a good solution to return the peace between us yet. so please leave me alone for the time being. do not update yourself to me, because when shouting in my heart occur again and again, i had been thinking... 'why didn't you tell me?' and other things...i understands that 'who am i to you? must you tell me your every movements?' the answer is no...so, go on ahead, but, although a friend may want to know your progress, i don't want to know. for me to forgive and forget, give me more time......

Fun!
It's the 13th day of Chinese new year and Jesslyn gathered people for bowling and visiting to her house. Meeting up...i couldn't stop myself from shouting internally, so i went to the meeting point earlier than any others. my entertainment while waiting? a road musician. (Sorry, i hoped i got a one dollar coin, but i didn't have it. nor i want to buy anything to get change). she blown a couple of music i heard, the same as songs my mother sang when i was young. basically, i could follow the music for a few of her songs. (Laugh)...listening to her music could makes me calm myself and stop all internal shouting. really, really cool...

it was later, after a lot of time wasted, just as time slowed, everyone finally gathered and played Bowling! WeiXiong, "Wa, real bowling is really different from FaceBook sia!" (Laughed) well, it's hard. my late game catching up succeeded for the first game, but second game...ZaX(Show) got crazy! (laugh) not his all time best score, but crashed everyone in the same game. bowling is nice, like it a lot, for a relaxing game. started using Shoe size 10 and ball number 11/12. holes for fingers? LARGE!! medium? my fingers can get jammed. small? forget it. first game, score 103, second......can't remembe, maybe someone else can remind me...(Laugh)

Last stop. Jesslyn's House, CNY visit. firstly, i don't see 37 people like she said. next, i am totally not into bet-ing. (No drinking for me, although no one drinks in her house today). so, watched people played black jack(21 dots, in chinese...sounds crap) Jesslyn, "Aiya, i hungry, that's why lose a lot!" and she is no kidding! after a great dinner, (although my braces minimize my appetite), jesslyn starts her winning momentum. looking at money flying here and there, i am very happy i didn't join in, (Laugh) too scary...in the end, bowling champ, falls......emptied wallet...still need WeiXiong to cover up his debts for the moment...well, ZaX paid back pretty fast. petrol money, on ZaX. End of the day, WeiXiong drives YY, myself than ZaX home.

to end the night, blogged and ciao neh. my bed, welcome me.

Wow, the world is so damn small, and i didn't minimize my world small enough

2009-02-06T00:28:00.002+08:00

Wow, what a confession, ck. i applaud you dude.

once upon a time, three guys were known as good friends. they called themselves 3Cs...after being friends for a few years, they fall for the same girl concurrently... after some problems, the first C, was disliked by the girl. and he, himself, stayed away from the other 2 C and the girl...

due to jealousy the first C than told the second C a story...saying that the third C is taking actions while hiding from the other 2 C. The first C also stated that the Third C acts like he doesn't matter but his actions aren't doing as he said. but, so happened that the Third C, said bad things about the First C when the first C isn't around and the third C also called the second to concentrate on his studies. the first C warned the second that asking the Second to concentrate on studies is to divert attention so that he can have the girl all by himself.

that's the rough idea of what i been through, being the second C...
i personally don't like the First C because he is proud, and didn't want to trust his words, saying the third C is diverting attention and all those crap. I challenged the girl not to have a bf before she gradulate because the girl is hurted so many times in her relationships.

although the girl broke her promise, i hope i could be like the old me, who will quietly bless you. first C, although i didn't like you as a friend, i thank you for letting me know Facts early.
the Third C...you made my trust, dust. you made what i believe into fairy tales... all your 'care' and 'concern', bullshits, take it back...i don't need it...if there is communication between us? it will be this line, i will be sending to you...

'if you dare break up with this girl. everytime i see you, prepare to eat my fist, because there is no way i will forgive you.'

Bad luck weeks. here and now...

2009-02-01T13:54:00.003+08:00

Firstly, chinese new year, leads to holiday and make up lessons...in the brillant set up of the school, my current class only have 2 days, going to school this week and we will be having Class Test, Documentation and a presentation.

class test, straight after chinse new year holiday, which is the third day of CNY, damn happy...7 questions with 5-6, i don't know the answer.
Documentation...first time i heard of it, it was said to be 10-60 pages. but in the end, my group handed in something lesser than 30...
Presentation...fourth day of CNY...i present till half way, fall asleep...somehow, yeah...woke up a second later...with a blank white brain....so, i read from the slides and finish my part ASAP.

Secondly, friday...and in the documentation, leave it to WeiXiong. thanks a lot. because i was thinking that i can sleep as long as i want...i missed my dental appointment again......tuesday, before school, i'll go make another appointment...hope i remember this time...><

for projects, Mobile System Development, To Deploy an application into a mobile device (hand phone, PDA, etc). Left with my last part, Master Dave. but, Monday, i sure cannot finish...darn crap...need to think of a final logic to complete the task at hand...

Saturday came, and finally fall sick...remembered about dental on this day. rejected Marcus to go to find Secondary School savour. sick la, sorry la...

and so, today sunday, still sick...grace asked me to blog, so, don't know why, listened to her and put all shameful things here... 'sigh'......

2/3 days before chinese new year, 2009

2009-01-25T15:51:00.004+08:00

pictures, i put on Facebook, so, not deciding to put here. if those on facebook isn't pictures you looking for, i think, visitors may visit Fiona's blog -> link on right side bar.

2 days before CNY, Fiona, Sharon and CK came by my house. first crap, Sharon 'i around 12 plus reach your house' in reality she came at 2+ 3+...fiona and ck reached earlier than her...

afternoon, seems bored...so, i asked, 'so, majong first or final shopping first?' we got to do both anyway. 2nd crap. Sharon 'facebook first' (She had been playing facebook since she enter my house)...

so, after she facebook-ed. shopping..3rd crap....sharon forgot to bring firecrackers. or, what do you call it? ck went home with sharon to collect what is forgotten...so, fiona and i went for final shopping and prepare the food before ck and sharon return...

after preparation, my mother came home. cooked Carrot cake and 'lor mai kai' (some sort of chicken rice?) for everyone..really, really shouldn't have eatten too much......

next, majong finally started. ck debut (first time majong). won first round, lose all others. o well. better luck next time.

8pm arrived. dinner time. my mother woke up because we are so noisy. and ask us to close all doors of other rooms...4th crap? fiona broke my door's chain. (the chain that suppose to prevent my door from closing)...one macho girl, i should say. (Laugh). 5th Crap, my mother add and add and add more food to our steamboat and is not eating! 9:10pm, mother went OUT.......

About 10pm, we quit...everyone's full...many food not cook, cooked not eaten.well, so...
did i mentioned? beers for ck, fiona and sharon. cs drink soft drink. and surprisingly, although not drunk, as told, the two girls got high...damn high...luckily my parents not home? (laugh). sharon actually thinks tat she is a guy/King...she even took fiona as her queen! and ck as second queen. whatever the title is...

o well, at least they helped cleaning up...finally, before we shut down the day, when down for fire crackers...crap 6. first, we get out of my house. next, 'we forget lighter!', went home, dig out a lighter, went out again. than, next, 'STILL GOT ANOTHER PACKET OF FIRE CRACKER!'...so, went home, took it, came out..and finally 'CS! I GOT ONE PLASTIC BAG, IS FOR MY HOSE BBQ DE, HELP ME TAKE!!'........

final crap...sharon burnt my rght thumb...
ah, fire is indeed dangerous! (Laugh)

Badminton Fixture 4...

2009-01-22T19:34:00.002+08:00

School challenge.

3 courts booked, yet 13 people came for badminton challenge! lol.
seems like everyone have fun playing, so not much to post about, because the badminton session makes me sooooo dead for my lessons 3pm-6pm. sleeping with my eyes open for all lessons.

can't remember anything.

all i know, this term, i am taking 3 subjects.
by next week, i need to complete......
1) MSYD - Prototype for my part
2) SWEN - SRS documentation
3) EBM - tutorial, to be post online

Cow year, cow's ear

2009-01-21T19:12:00.004+08:00

new year, new ear, an addtional ear, for you to equip on your body. right crap, i know.

back to 4 years ago, CS, who still don't know how to socialist.....father always crap about CS, having so little friends...damn great. because no friends, no problem. be myself, no one cares...right, my father do care. s there is one who cares...maybe care too much. for the sake of me? CRAP! he also find his friends annoying! damn crap!

crap, crab, chop chop, cook -> seafood.

recent jealousy make myself even more childish than i ever can be.. as a kid, cs wouldn't even 'go to teacher and say you hit me'...because, hit me? go ahead, in the end, only your hand hurts...

recently, even small little things, i want to fight over it...super childish, i would rate myself...new year coming, will i even childishly fight over Red packets? o crap, i don't even want to think about it...friday, 3 days before Niu(New) year, mother having an off day, going shopping with her, i suppose, new clothes? maybe, maybe not, i don't care. if got, got new clothes,if no, than, as usual, old clothes...

Jesslyn Da-Ren(Master) called me to go her house bai-nian, (visit her house during CNY), not sure if want to go, go, like a bit, embarrass,because, know her not long only, want to go her house take red-packet....feel very weird...plus, the tradition of bai-nian is, 'i go your house, you go my house', inter exchange red packets...but, she definitely, not visiting me...

Programming case, i have not reach my maximum determination to get it going yet, vey sad, very distracted by myself. badminton, less time to play le, project, roaring into my head. games, coming into my life, altough i don't want to get addicted to it, ah!.

No matter what, short-term Target, give Master Dave a running Software next week.
Mission, start!

Chinese Post...heart is confused again...

2009-01-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

可以吗？对朋友,对爱人, 当需要时,我只可以把我的人带来给你, 当一个笨蛋傻傻的听朋友们说话, 听一些自私的话, 傻傻的让朋友们以为他们不是一个人的(因为有cs).

可以吗？不去理会万事, 不去把握机会,不去追求爱情和梦想,只知道需要做好自己真的够吗？

可以吗？从小就被批评到一文不值的我,可以出人头地吗？可以幸福吗？有资格去爱, 去高兴吗？

可笑吧？我人不出名,可是秘密不用说也有一天下的人知道. 一天下的人知道, 但是,和秘密有关的人又不想去想，不想去知道.

真丢人,就像 '四方堂'说的, "就像喝醉之后一边睡一边吐一样丢脸."......

真笨...我真笨...鬼眼狂刀都教过了..."如果你要待在他身边,那就被讨厌也要待在他身边,如果要他笑就先笑给他看, 幸不幸福不是你决定的, 不是吗？"

麻烦了,都不知道自己等的一件事和一个人, 等不等得到........等得到又如何等不到这么办...?

Annoyed, annoyed, annoyed!

2009-01-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

Fixture 4, destroyed. court used last week, cannot be used...

so, Sharon vs CK vs CS, played on 12 storey high, in a no net, no nothing corridor......got plants, ceiling distractions....

totally crap...wasted my time!

so, most great thing i had done this 3 days weekend. Prototype on my Mobile System Development project. wahahahahahaha

Problem, for intellecture disable people, create an application for them to help them in their daily life.
Focus, even if they are intellecture disable, they still need to buy things. but, how much money to take out when the shop owner say 'Fifteen dollar and fifty cents'? well, $15.50? they may not know how those money looks like.
Solution, a Tool for them to use, displaying what much note is needed, and how the note looks like.
there will be an additional training tool whereby the cost will be randomed. and the user will practise on how much money to pay by choosing the notes and coins.

Relax and walking around facebook

2009-01-16T23:32:00.003+08:00

Firstly, what animal i am (Beside Human)

A lot of people don't realize this, but llamas are the coolest animals on the planet. They are totally laid back, they have stylish hairdo's, and they've got good attitudes towards all creatures, big and small. They're like the "awesome next door neighbors" of the animal kingdom. You're a llama! Be happy, be proud. Then go out and spread the word that there's nothing cooler than a llama. The world has got to know the truth.

really? o well...i am totally glad with the words.

secondly, how will i die. (Super interested in knowing) but in the end...

Result: Peacefully In Your Sleep
You're smart, you're healthy and you don't let anger or stress get the best of you. But even the best of us gotta go sometime.Wanna die in a more adventurous way? We recommend taking up one (or all) of the following hobbies: glass eating, chemical mixing, hijacking, or poking grizzly bears with sticks and calling them "jerkface."

thirdly, what's wrong with you?

Result: Too Friendly
You're very open with people, which is great, but sometimes those people are wearing brass knuckles, which is not great. You tend to think that people are generally good at heart, and because of that, you're very trusting. People are drawn to your positive attitude and you tend to make friends easily. (You might also be a little vain, but hey, who could blame you? You're a good-looking individual, and you have a right to be a little cocky about it.) So where could you go wrong? Well, if you're too friendly, you might not be on alert for those folks you really shouldn't trust. So try to use more caution when you meet new people. And quit trading gym socks with strangers. That's just plain gross.

OK, rather fun. what's wrong with me? i am too friendly? let's make myself a bad guy. lol

fourthly, what will my last words be? COOL!

Result: By my calculations, the meteor won't hit us for another 3,000 years.
You're always the smartest person in the room. Which is why, one day when a meteor looms in the distance, the government will call upon you to figure out how long it'll be till we all get pulverized. Unfortunately, you will forget to carry the 2. A second later, you and the rest of life on earth will be annihilated by a giant rock half the size of the moon. The good news: it'll happen pretty quick. The bad news: sorry, but you're not gonna get that Nobel Prize.

crap...-.- sploit my mood...

Badminton Fixture 3

2009-01-15T18:31:00.004+08:00

although don't have a lot of 1 on 1, but...first, let's do an intro

Dave, Jun Wei, Wei jian, Zhen Teng, CS. Grace, Jesslyn.

sad thing, 7 people, 2 courts

happy things, Dave, Jun Wei, Wei Jian, Zhen Teng, very strong.

Dave, strongest of all, winning all one on one and two on one......
in fixture 2, met a girl, smack, very strong. today, saw Dave...hit downwards, smack, hit lightly, also very strong...meeting with such talent, can't say, 'bo bian, he primary school school team'...
want to say, say 'one day, i will beat him'...

Jesslyn...well, people go for badminton, prepare sports attire, prepare to make ourselves 'dirty'

she, 'ekk, later get dirty.'... 'i didn't bring anything to bath'...and even brought laptop........

in the end, at least she got play.

and again, i losing to almost everyone i played with.......

so ends, Badminton, Fixture 3. Season 1...

CK 23th birthday.

2009-01-11T21:59:00.005+08:00

everything doesn't go as he planned. wahahahaha.

firstly, CY isn't around because of TSOnline?

CK, "I thought i say, don't want cake?"
well, we got it for you.

Sharon, "Come, birthday present"
CK was stunned.

CS, "My present...nothing special la. this meal, i treat you." (Meaning, others, pay yourself)

so, we got 2 guys and...two girls. for today. Our drinks.

ck's fish

my mixed grill.
the birthday cake. everyone's dessert. including the stuffs' there got a share of it.

Badminton challenge Day 2

2009-01-10T21:32:00.002+08:00

CK VS CS VS SHARON.

Winner, Sharon. can beat both of us in 1 on 1 and 2 on 1......crap...

After a long battle between the 3 of us...a girl and a lady joined in......

the lady, well, she doesn't want to exercise much, so, slack a lot, i don't mind. but, one happening that burns my blood of challenge...that girl......she is damn fierce. grace trashed me, nvm la. this girl, i don't know her name, never ask for her number, not deciding to know her. her skills are definity above mine. of cause, when serious, there is fight, until she use the badminton skill, known as 'smack'...darn shit. it is almost end of the day for me and where the hell can i find the energy to defend smack?! if i see her again, i really want to battle her with full or equal energy...

for a 'no taste' person like me, i don't know, but, fio and sharon do said that the girl is pretty. so, o well, i guess she is. but, of cause, i am not going to get a girl friend anytime soon and so, o well, just looking for challenges. so, next up, Thursday, possible appearances, Jesslyn, Grace, CS...three people again? maybe...more can join in! (Laugh)

yet again, can't reach a thousand words because, no pictures...

Badminton challenge

2009-01-08T21:21:00.001+08:00

First day of badminton challenge...4 words
Kenna crash by grace.
she too strong liao.
Season Opening, CS lost, without knowing the points.
stay toon, for next week's fixtures.

The World Ends with you, the time, goes with you as well

2009-01-07T21:59:00.005+08:00

So, let's turn back the time, back to the days, when we are still living in the year 2008

does it sounds like a long time ago? i hope it sounds like it.

firstly, i singled out this picture. the hat, i give de. nice ma? (Self praising, don't mind me)

Secondly, proudly, strike a pose, in front of the camara.thirdly, this guy! CK, didn't manage to dodge the camara for the first time.fourthly, CY, who is not camra shy first time of the night. next, we have the most not camara shy, Sharon.

the camara is hers, anyway.

Fio finally caught CK in the camara, and celebrated.

Sharon is happily singing after.

thank you, the taker of this photo. that's what i called good service.

he even praise the 2 girls, pretty girls.

CK...a fine day, instead of a sad one.(laugh)

2009-01-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

the day was sad, as i never realise how big was a war which i was involved in. well, i realised it now. and also, i realised that CK watched Ponyou with fio on friday. makes things clear, i was at home whole day and no one asked me out. forget it, don't blame anyone.

after a boring and sad day with ck, i digged out some antique. pictures are below.

Antique Twin Saber

Practise CS.

CK's practise.

and we played until...hands and legs gone black! (Laugh)blured picture, but our hands are really black. (Laugh)

as i said, my right hand got black, but my left hand is still white.

CK than come close with his tougue...-.-

Soaped my hand and this, is the water that comes off my hands. Black again. (laugh)Next, after cleaning up, CK got insanely attached to my handphone.
And of cause, finally, Happy cow(In chinese) year!

or Happy new Year! lol.

a picture speaks a thousand words? i got ten pictures 10 thousand words ++ for this post

i am happy enough. (Laugh out loud)

New Year

2009-01-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

Once i said, i will be away, i had been away for the whole of last year. (Ya right, it's just a few days)

Firstly, happy new year to all that visits.

secondly, good words meant for life.

' Remember, life is short, forgive and forget quickly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that made you smile' sms from Jiamin- C173

'Let this new year be like a plane with dreams as your wings, love as your engine, friends as your crew, happiness as your passengers and have a great new year ahead' sms from CK- ccss

bad words meant to harden yourself during hardship.

'Two good friends, who lived in the city area for all their lives, went to the forest for an adventure. than, so unluckily, they met a tiger. a hungry one. one of the guy than, calmly, changed to his running shoes...the other guy than asked. 'hey! are you nuts?! you want to out run a tiger?!'. his friend continue changing and said... 'No, i just need to out run, YOU!'...' by CMSK2, Serena-sensei

morale of the story, just like CK told me. "sometimes, when got trouble. depend on yourself. depend on other people, you yourself may suffer"
so, depend less, do it yourself, more.

'There is this guy, A, who lives in the wild and he is a Tribe Leader. In a Civilized country, A needs to go to the city and meet with B, a lawyer, to settle some Land problems. this day, when A and B walks in a busy street, A stopped suddenly. A told B, 'i heard a cricket!' B thought A is nuts, and doesn't believe him. 'Who in the world can hear cricket in a busy street of a city?!'. B thought. A, than, confidently took a cricket out from a small patch of grass and stunned B.and A explained, "Things that are important to you, you can hear them, even if you are in a busy street." A, than used a most ridiculous example, drops a coin(MONEY) on the floor, catching many people's attention and said "To these people, money is very important, so, the coin caught their attention' Also By Serena-Sensei.

morale of this story, 'slow down your life, sometimes.listen to voices in the surrounding, you may hear something you didn't noticed even if it had been close to you all this time'.

OK, i am still waiting for more interesting stories to save in this blog. anyone have any, just email it to me! (laugh stupidly, because i ain't posting my email address here)

The End.

2008-12-27T09:57:00.001+08:00

Dead Fish mode

Concentration +10%
Motivation +5%
Willingness to work +10%
Power to do unexpected things +30%
Above expectation subjects 100%

Friendship -20%
Willingness to give up friendship +70%
Give up on love +80%

I have decided to use DF mode again, but with additional oil added into it this time. Reasons can’t be stated here because, reasons are only excuses and people I wanted to blame are people who visit this blog rather often. In addition, I even did worst things compared to what all of them have done, so, can’t talk bad about them. But, I can only state one of the reasons. As for a man; there is only one target, which is to be the best. So, I proudly say that I would like to challenge the Title God, in the 2 new subjects I will be taking in the up coming semester.

Next target, also the target for DF Mode, GPA 3.1
Dead fish mode. Online!
Activate!

End of post. I will be away from this blog for awhile, till than, and see you!

Twin Post on the same day.

2008-12-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

As stated on the previous post, i didn't sleep enough for the previous night. today's EBM Meeting is...well? sleepy...sorry. i truly, didn't mean it..>_<

this post's story starts after i sent Fio home (Not even sent her to her block, sad) and i walked back home.

O well, my back up energy isn't listening to my command, the power didn't just activate. it is a skipping electric circuit. sometimes on, sometimes off.

helped my father with some paper work and left for tampines around 1145.

Met grace at expected timing. Yingyin was late, so grace and i went to the Air-con macdonald at tampines interchange to sit down and chat. Grace is a good chatting partner. she really understand how i feel lo. say anything also can de. not like CK, "That girl. in front of her, i don't know what to talk about". that line was taken from a far history, (Laugh).

Later, yy caught up with a bus, and grace and i managed to rushed into the bus. so, greeted each other after we were inside the bus, sitted. 3 People met.

Met Jesslyn at her house, with an empty stomach. (Sorry, i am not having a totally emptied stomach). jess is a great cook. she cooked a lot. can't finish eating. plus, i didn't get enough sleep, so no mood to eat too much. (sorry, sorry). Wei Xiong arrived soon later. the Eating when on. later, CS, "Nghi is working all day. so, he is excused from this meeting today. we got 'apologises for absence' today! (laugh)"

not to blame on my lack of sleep, i didn't contribute much. sorry team. always let the team down...but, averagely, good chat, giving christmas gifts to jess, shared my chocolate with everyone, shared grace's candy with everyone, shared yy's Sins chocolate Santa, did we eat weixiong's food? lol, and of cause, shared food of Jesslyn's cooking. lol

left pretty late. once back home, blogged. singapore time, before 9pm. i am soooo Dead.

Ciao. can't help but to sleep right now.

Christmas Eve.

2008-12-25T10:10:00.000+08:00

Impressed. although no picture once again, the event. good.

met everyone on time, 1430. no late, no nothing. 100 marks.

When to Shop and Save for final shopping. key things to note. 2 Tub of Ice Cream! 2Litre Orange juice! lol.

preparation of dinner. ok, i am totally bad with kitchen. i got kicked out by the 2 girls, out of MY house kitchen and let them prepare the food with CY and CK. win liao lor, fiona, sharon...-.-

chat a little and dinner time came quickly.

When we started preparing for dinner, Brother woke up! lol. he cooked spagetti for everyone!! lol. mother reached home before after a few meat is cooked. Mother joined in the battle!...sadly, she ate in her work place. too hungry le...

ate for a few hours. eat slowly. better for health. (like real)

after dinner, watch tv, watch news, tha majong! although it's 1030pm, well, light-shuffle majong. super irritating...lol.

mother went out with father, but back home alone, quickly.

mother joined in the Majong rumble...lol. in the end..Sharon Won!...zzz.

Present Exchange!!
result
Fiona -> CY's present (A bear. metal. don't know how to descript)
Sharon-> CK's present (CK, own made FriendShip stars
CK -> CS's present (Cup. he choose de. but, i mistake, brought a same model, but missing one picture, sorry again, CK)
CS-> Fio's present (Cookies. heard very expensive. thanks ah. i will eat de...)
CY -> sharon's present (Chocolate. chinese tranlate as ->Gold Sand, english, don't know how to spell)

after present exchange, watch kindaichi (something like this spelling) until 4+ 5+, go down for walk, came back home and rest le...sharon and CY never sleep. power dudes. ck sleep like deadman. fiona seems super uncomfortable on my bed. sorry, no hotel class bed and pillow......
me? 20 minutes nap i suppose. before sleep, listening to CY and Sharon talking. wake up, still those 2 talking. =X

than, sent fio half way home. she insist on chasing me away. so, o well. walked home. and BLOGGED!.

tonight's post, Present Exchange with C175. part of them. naming, CS, Nghi, Jesslyn, Grace, Yingyin, Weixiong.

Sorry folks. Chinese post today

2008-12-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

在战国时代，家康是名为黑血的家族. 今天，我认识了一名吴君. 他的血, 一定是和家康黑血一样种类的. 吴君不是看到血就高兴的家伙. 他是一个喜欢挑战性的人. 对一般人没兴趣.看到一百分中拿到一百分的人就会燃烧他的血. 可怕! 我到今时今日都没有足够的motivation(对不起，不知道华语的写法) 去和神挑战......

OK folks, my chinese is that bad, i am back with my english post.

Tomorrow, 24/12/08, Christmas eve. got, fio, sha, 3c in the house... marcus...because you never listen to me, and apologise to sha. i don't think i am inviting you to the party. somethings, even i can't help with. don't have to forgive me, i don't ask for forgiviness.

ck brought a christmas gift for my mother (Ying-Jie 英姐). i think she will like it la. Help her say thanks here ba...THANKS, CK!

because my family seldom get christmas presents, celebrate christmas and etc.

my mother will join the party late tomorrow, hope others don't mind. my brother, no dates currently, don't mind him, let's eat together. lol. he is a good guy in all direction, so, don't feel shy. he more handsome than me, don't need to get your face red, can talk, joke, play with him de.

and so, my english part is longer than my chinese. indeed, if you let me have an exam on both language, chinese will failed in a worst manner. lol.

Anyone visiting this blog, Merry Christmas. Ho-Ho-Ho!

Holiday, week 1.

2008-12-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

OK. sorry dudes. i am not a mood to blog......

Summary on Week 1.

Monday, Finally able to play Atlantica Online. played whole day. pretty good, playing again. after all those shitty short deadlines projects and crappy Problem Solving EBM (Solving nothing and brought forth so many problems). Last semester was totally, crappy.

Tuesday. this day comes so fast. the week before, planned for this. Morning, back to School, Temasek Polytechic, IIT School. helped Louis V(-1) on SSSD. ok, i crapped it as much as i could. Hope you dudes get through! Jyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjy. i've also taught gavin a technique! remember to use it!! don't say i teach de! lol. i stay behind the scene, good enough le.

Wednesday. CY got the ticket for a chinese 'show'. show of some kind. from fio. o well. if you like her, go ahead and date her as much as you want, don't shy. =X
this day, we went to deli-France for late lunch-early dinner. chat was good. didn't see these people for some time that day. as stated on last post, Bird Shit of some kind. early christmas present.

Thursday, EBM meeting. well, attendence was good. team arrival timing...pretty good. i prepared chips, chocolate, drink and sweets for late comers. luckily Grace was early and there is someone to eat with me. =P great time eating and chatting with you. of cause, Ty YingYin for the Christmas Present! lol. not often i am getting christmas gifts from others. went to walk around in tampines, ate KFC later. overall, a very good day, compared to the super 'lucky' wednesday.

friday, saturday......PLAY! Atlantca Online. although no friends playing the game with me.

Sunday. When out with CK, CY and Marcus(Well, latest to meet up, earliest to leave). shopped for christmas gift. brought them on that day.. understands my brother's point of view towards parents once again. well, i do share those views. why do i share? because we are brothers? lol

monday. CK visited. lunch for my brother and me too. thanks! (Laugh).
fio called. went down to Simei with a straight bus 5. brought some food and stored in my house. only got scolded by my mother, "WHERE GOT PEOPLE BUY VEGETABLE ON MONDAY ONE" in cantonese of cause. *the vegetable word is direct translation.

well, well. i don't take it at heart. (Laugh)

CK, "wa, today you sure got something to blog liao"

2008-12-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

Well, well...walking home, talking my heart out with CK today, one thing happened to me before we say good bye. Bull's eye! bird shit (i supposed) landed on my face + t-shirt. what a day. must be someone hiding somewhere wanted me to think more positive... thanks, the whoever someone out there.

An outing and greetings to the holiday.

2008-12-13T18:37:00.000+08:00

OK, today, 13/12/2008. last day of Week 8(TermTest Week). Some what relaxing. 1/3 outing completed. Outing- Alvinzo named as 5N1 gathering. This day, the other 2Cs brought fiona(wl) to woodlands. for KBox, singing.

I wasn't there, but the three of them seems happy enough when i met up with them at 2pm, in woodlands. ate lunch happily in PastaMania and I made wl angry with a sentence. (Laugh) sorry, folks, can't say it publicly. although i would be proud to say it. (Laugh) CY, heard it, CK didn't. o well, let's skip this part. if not i will get a knife on my head.

Met up with Alvinzo, in woodlands, for a few words. he is teaching tuition that day, so, didn't went for movies with the 3 Cs, fiona and sharon. after the movie, twilight, we head to Bedok, Market 85. the movie seems alright, not exciting enough for me. maybe i am not emotional enough for love-movies. without chinese/english sub titles, we couldn't catch what they are talking.but, everyone didn't complain, so, i am fine with it. Walk pass Converse a times, didn't see C173, JM there though. too bad, it's been a year since i last went to woodlands.

At Bedok, crowded. well, got 2 tables and joined into one. Well, Apologies for Absence? "Jermaine is sick without an MC!" OK. slight fever, don't want to eat heaty food. i'll let you pass. so, Thank you, Fiona, Sharon, CK, CY, JX, Marcus, Alvin and Karen for being there! the dinner is good! although we didn't split the money too well, thank you CK for the money! lol

To end the day, everyone walks their own way home...well, i went home to get my ps3 to Alvinzo's house. Football! Football! all around the world! lol. Played till 5am, sleep till 11am, finish breakfast/lunch at noon, 1330, left alvinzo's house, 2pm reach home......SLEEP!! till 6pm.

Overall, it's 4/5 if you ask me.
Woodlands movie should ask JX, Jermaine, Marcus along.
Dinner, there shouldn't be any Apologies for Absences.
Last minute called up, should at least have one good reply. lol, that's not possible.(Laugh)

Next up, Tuesday, C173--, Sakae! Wednesday, EBM Meeting, 1pm.....

Semester 2.2. Term 1 completed.

2008-12-12T09:11:00.000+08:00

Fast! 'Poly life', 8 weeks flies! for the second term, i felt that 7-8 school week flies! the previous term was quick, with Mobile Database Systems(MDBS) in term mode (Subject that only takes 7 weeks to completion), OPSY, DSAG WWNK, only needs to study for Main Exam. the previous term past damn fast! this sem, joining a new class (Well, only i feel that i am new) this term was fun and quick. Fun Time Passes quickly, i guess. Week 8 was terrible, but, it's over!

Outing on 11/12/08, Jesslyn seems happy enough to finally watch Bolt. (Laugh). she wanted to watch it so badly but she choosen the wrong day for the movie. it's totally the wrong day. invited the whole class, end up only 4 went.

Coming outings, 12/12/08. Bedok Market 85, loved by my Secondary School friends, and some are available for dinner. not sure if it goes well, as Alvin is busy till 8pm on this day. so, others hope to watch a movie at woodlands, somewhere near Alvin and Sharon's school. so, I hope everyone don't argue and disagree too much. hope you dudes get to watch Bolt too! (I know...i watched it. so, you dudes better watch it without me)

Planned on 16/12/08. Poly-friends-C173, maybe not all, a part of the class to Changi Airport for Sakae Sushi. Naming people who is 100% going, Jeryl, Eugene, Gavin and of cause, CS. i am getting free good for that day though. =X

3 good outings. hope my father wouldn't nag me for staying at home everyday now. i am sick and tired of helping him(If i stay at home, he either nag me, saying that i am not out going, and ask me to observe his stocks for him) . totally sick! Good Jobs, don't come with thanks, Badly Done comes with days after days of insulting and nagging...

Semester 2.2. Week 7 Day 6...

2008-12-06T20:45:00.000+08:00

First thing first. Service-Side Software Development aka SSSD. Project Application, finalise at long last. The team has bad communication, but manage to finish everything. i myself didn't play a good part. i am the worst...

yeah, brother, if you are you looking at this, go ahead and laugh at me, 'Best Partner'...zzz...-_-

i am the worst person in the family anyway.

sssd had been a heck of a subject. most friends i know is having a bad thing with it. too bad, it wasn't as bad when the feedback session is taking place. so, i didn't feedback it.(Sorry, world).

but, am i lucky or what? Team-Position -God. thank you for completing all parts that i am helpless at, within 3 days. and you only used less than 5 hours for two of the days. for the last day, you spent a quarter. thanks a lot...
TeamPosition-Leader. good job. you did a lot. grateful for your effort.

my problem seems to be over. but, class (C173) is breaking apart real nice. The legendary Louis V, i'm once a part of it, is dying in front of me because of arguements in SSSD. thanks a lot, Gavin, Eugene and JM. jeryl? good job being the center man and not taking part in the arguement. well, the girls? Zakiyah and fan, thanks for the feedback. i understand how your group is breaking apart. i am at fault for not being around as well.

*I told the Course Manager "I am happy with choosing 'Business Solution', but my class isn't happy that i chosen 'Business Solution"...Well, the course manager don't know where i am from anyway.

the final group? i only got news that Aaron is hated.

well, i love this Polytechnic class. from 25, down to 13. now, you guys are breaking apart......

Semester 2.2. Week 7 Day 1...

2008-12-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

OK. dated at 1st dec 2008. Today, what a day, Sam Tang, MSID/SSSD lab Instructor came to class early. 5 minutes before class, usually he is just on time or late, and gave our Interview for Case Study the class had done on Tortorise SubVersion, i suppose no one used SourceSafe Subversion.

My interview gone weird. i talk crap too much. when i started my interview, 45 minutes till end of class. i crapped for 15 minutes, Sam: "Eh, faster, faster." and so, i skipped 'Revision Log' part. Also thanks to nghi for helping out a little with my part. lol. Nghi, confident explaination to Sam about his part. I tried to show interest. but Sam looks at me with a pair of 'Are you sure?' eyes...zzz. wth. last member, Mr.Kiang Hua. something like that. his report was, C&P whole sale. so, didn't know anything about his part, only showed demo. Sam: "That's not the correct way to do it" sad......

after MSID lab, Louis V -1 dining in TP-Design canteen again. well, it is a hot day. lol. after eating, we when to SSSD Lab in IT School Level 3, for projects. didn't do much. i am getting too much dead brain cells in my head lately...zzz. skipped lecture for nothing.

Gathered with ComunicationSkill Group, lead by Jesslyn at 3pm, after lecture. discuss breifly on tomorrow's Minutes of Meeting Plans. later, Joel leads me to level 2 lab after a tour from level 3 to level 6 than back to level 2.

Do sssd? impossible. without Nghi, i am nothing but a piece of crap. CK and CY caught WL and brought her for dinner. CK reported that to me and invited me to join in, too bad. i can't go to bedok because i didn't contribute to the project due next week at all today!

so, in the end, CK and CY (2 guys) had dinner with WL (1 girl). and I, walked Jesslyn and YingYin to tampines (1 guy, 2 girls) to tampines to eat. lol, jkjk, Joel got join in the dinner. lol.

Although tired, came back home and continue working. Got a ton of work needed to do!!

*another no picture post. next time try to take some. lol.

End

Something to think about?

2008-11-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

Today, someone asked me something that i got stunned...

how many seconds have past since i started deciding to walk my path alone. how many minutes wondered off after i felt nothing while being alone... what did i didn't noticed while i am walking on this path.

suddenly, so many questions without answers pop out of my head. but, i only noticed one thing... although i always said that i want to walk alone, i can't do it. i always find others when i needed them. just like an attitude i hated.....

Attitude i hated -> Find someone when you need them, ignore when you don't need...

The World Ends with you, but, when is My ending? when do my world ends? i gave up on so many things already...yet, i don' t see anything ending just yet......i wasn't even trying to find the light to my life...wat the hell...

when did i give up on treasuring friendship? when did i give up on this girl i love. wait a minute. what is friendship? seems like a stupid idiot who don't even know what the hell is friendship......

etc.etc.etc....

An outing but not reported.

2008-11-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

OK. this story happened before the previous post.

On that day...i remembered. it was a friday.....yeah...it was a friday.. i stayed back in school for an hour and could not continue with my project...that's right..Project....

I got bored and told marcus(Dog) to meet up soon. well, the request was granted. than...well, met up with Dog, JaX, Karen in Tampines interchange. Jermaine a little later. And met Alvin. just before we get into tampines mall. Had fun that day.

Booked the day 12/12/08. to go Alvin's house overnight. not sure if anyone is still going......forget it...the pictures are below...Pictures do tell a thousand words.

Finally, i understand! lol

2008-11-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

Firstly, i understand why people who blogs, don't blog often. WAhahaaha.

it cannot be express to words...if it can, the word is Laziness...wahahahahaha

secondly. i understand what a great father i have. (if you are looking at this, sorry, grace. your father is the worst i heard of yet). i have a father who does everything wrong, but money.

thirdly. i understand what friends are for...yesterday. a happy day, with laughers in the air.

Well. missing a few Star Players. but, people seems happy with Yesterday. so, let's call it a happy day.

First Week of Sem 2.2

2008-10-27T13:06:00.000+08:00

PROJECTS!!!

ok. that's the summary of it...
Subject taking this Term. MSID, SSSD, CMSK2, EBM......
MSID, SSSD, CMSK2. First assignment due... -> Week 3........

MSID -> User Guide for a new Programming Language. Perl...
SSSD -> A report basic report on "Game Server" that we will be doing later.
CMSK2 -> a professional Resume and Cover Letter.

Great...Perl took me some brain juice...the report on game server leads me to no idea... CMSK? just get a draft ready for Week 2. let's hear what the teacher have to say......

Life...'s...great...yeah.......

Family Day.

2008-09-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today, one small family of mine is having holiday.

Morning, have breakfast together, wan ton noodles.

late morning till mid afternoon, rest and do our own things. Sleep, watch anime, Sleep or TV.

Late afternoon to evening, Mother, Brother and i, 3 people Big 2. i win quite a lot.

evening to 10pm. Ma jong......father enters the battle.................well, i am the biggest loser...

10pm till rest of the day...Father: "Finish at 10pm? watch news..." Mother continues to do housework. Brother: "I go bath" ->Brother watches Man Utd VS Chelsea.......

zzz...hated to play ma jong with parents. they damn good.......><

Holidays...

2008-09-15T13:41:00.000+08:00

Exam result. Got it back. happy that everyone around is getting good results. not very good, but good...

solved the Sorting with Linked List. didn't solve before my project due, but still solved it. may need in the future, so, at least i did it......although my codes are in a mess. one whole chunk. but it works...

Going to buy a Book. not comfirmed to buy a Java or C# Book......not sure which language, i will be using coming semesters as well. it's hard to decide...afraid of wasting money......

Learned History of Computer Language......Once upon a time -> All computer uses 'C' as their main computer language. due to it's complicated codes, C++ is created so that people understands what code they are using. Not long later, C++ becomes main computer language. but, someone further improves C++ to create Java codes. And so, Java is now the mostly used computer language, today. Than, for further improvements for Java, C# is than create, like a Brother to Java. Java and C# codes are 80% similiar.

but still, i only learned a little of Java and C#...using JGrasp and Microsoft visual studio. feeling a bit useless as i haven't learn how to insert picture into my program. but, the book i am buying, will make me input picture into my program! this is my aim in this holiday...

Hope everyone's determination on the target of this holiday is strong enough to last for the whole holiday. Kan Ba Teh...
at least, i am most worried about my own determination...-_-

Examinations Result for 2.1

2008-09-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

Pass all!!!

Main Subjects

- CMSK 4 (Comm Skill) D

- OPSY (Operating System) C+

- DSAG (Programming) B+

- MDBS (Database) B+

- WWNK (Networking) A

GPA - 2.93

Happy enough for an unhappy man.

It is great to get results back. better when my job of 'Moon Cake assistance' is in business. can hand out a few liao. not a lot. continuing in a few days. don't expect too much, not much ingredients this year, sad......so, only chosen ones get to eat, i guess.

Life in the past.

2008-08-29T12:33:00.000+08:00

Great. Holidays...7 weeks...
Holiday ends at Last Week of October, i suppose

Back to school...brings loneliness this time. but it's good...
No matter how far i go, i had been relying on others. this time, i will move on, by myself. to see how far my determination goes, how far i can go by myself...

Past:
Secondary 3 - Fiona woke me up and made me study.
Secondary 4 - the 2 oldmen challenged me to excel. to beat them.
Secondary 5 - for those fallen(CY and CK). for teachers (Ms Kong, Fat Goh - KNS, Anwar - Tidus ah). for those i given up on....

for these people, i battled into the road i walked on today.
Poly year 1 - Maths again. made me fired up. With maths battle riding on, i must step up to the challenge, isn't it? Distinction for CMaths 1 and A for CMaths 2.
Year 2.1 (Just ended) - With people teaming up for Group/individual project. i became lazy...

Future. i planned to go on alone. The only target i have now is to get through...

So, i will try to prepare myself for future subjects. Hopefully, i will learn something before i go back to school. well, nothing makes me motivated......

Next Month - September 2008, Home-Made MoonCakes. order now! :P

Birthday? Why must be happy?

2008-08-17T18:28:00.000+08:00

Why so happy? every year, this day. only people around me are happy. i am the one who is having a sad face. why, you asked? wah lao. every year, August, exam period. who can put a smile on his face? (Can is can la, don't feels right). well, got 2 early wishes, 1 morning wishes from people i know. present? well, don't need la.

but than. every year i asked myself. "my family...till now. don't know me meh?" "still don't understand my attitude towards birthday??" every year family members will "Eh, you main character leh. what you want to get for dinner". whenever i say "anything" "you choose, i am ok" or something like that. they all get mad. what i do? let them choose, also my fault? money, also they all pay, why MUST i choose?

my character, always no opinion one ma. than, still want to get mad when i say i no opinion. what's wrong with them? want to eat, EAT LA! let me get chicken rice for dinner also can. Peaceful. Better than eat with my parents. father will ask one question i hated most. "Eh, why not smiling?". Siao! no good reason, smile for what? even if birthday, cannot pull a long face meh. i 365 days/year also like that! Just to add on a little. Another question i hated "Eh! talk leh! why don't talk?" !#$%^&*() never talk, crime?!

Just nagging. i don't even know if i am wrong on this occasion. -_-

Done. going out.

Crap

2008-08-14T18:09:00.000+08:00

What a day. Filled with Craps.

First, when to school early to help Psyhic-Gavin out with his Networking.
end up -> he didn't need my help
secondly, Louis V is the only Team that supports his teammate for networking today
end up -> Psyhic - Gavin cut que when Q-ing for Chicken Rice
thirdly, went for MDBS Lab LESSON
End up -> Teacher, "Today, no lesson. Self Study."
next, slacking in LAB LESSON
End up -> Horse-Dog comes online and said a meanless "You. Can do" WTF?
next, all people, "Let's study......?"
end up -> watching video. laughing all the way.
finally, MDBS Written Test.......
end up -> "State an example......" 10 marks (WTF!!!)

today. is crap.totally.......

Nothing goes too bad..unless.......

2008-08-10T10:56:00.000+08:00

Showdown on thursday, WWNK, as mentioned in previous post. when out ok...the 4 of Legendary Team Eugene got their presentation. 3 of us get super high marks, i am elite, so..you know...:p

As expected, the day is tiring, putting up wires 8am and pulling them down at 11am. Not just pulling down wires, but to coil them properly and give them back to Fernandez. Although i didn't do anything on thursday, my team got it done. Still, i share the same pain in the ***. All i did was to bind my report for Fernandez while Team coil the wires.

My comments on Student - Teacher QnA for the project. Nothing goes too bad unless "you go to war unprepared". QnA, somehow, the Unprepared Team Eugene member got stuck in most of Fernandez's Qs. and the whole team of 7, 1 absent, only i got a good marks....unprepared? or is it all Fernandez's plan? give me all the easy ones and give others all the hard ones. Valerie got the Question "Which computer or laptop get their IP address from wihch Router or Ap or where"
this 1 is hard. truly hard......but, after a few thinking, i know the answer...wahaahahaha

Nothing goes too bad for the lesson after presentation. the Teacher Mrs.Ho let us off 1 hour earlier because she finish her lesson fast and the class didn't want to continue. Do not say that we are bullying. we are just tired. lol

So, lesson ended earlier than expected. Went Home, First thing First. SLEEP!!! nice...

Friday. 080808. BeiJing Olympic Games, i don't even bother because my communication skills is about Youth Olympic Games 2010. Plus, by just watching olympics, i could have sleep the whole day. i don't understand the joy in it. Still, triple 08 was a day to perform my Water Technology Assignment. Although a pass, not good enough, i thought...teacher said, "i will give you water with the colour of "teh" and after your treatment, must come out clear water" well, my team made 100plus. the marking scheme was "If the water come out even more dirty, than you fail la" so, passed...not good enough that's it......

Nothing in life is too bad. That night, Old L, Horse-Dog and Xiao Yue got me out for a early night movie which ended at 11pm++. close to 12. xiao yue have no bus, no mrt home. so, walked him to bedok from tampines. Through disappeared Legends, Xiao Yue and I have incredible Walking speed. caught up big times with xiao yue, one of the guys, that truly accepts all my opinion, understands my point of view. If he disagrees, if will also benefits me, i guess...

Sometimes, i said that myself "i don't want to be a person that i hate" meaning, attitudes or doings that makes me feel uncomfortable, i wouldn't do it. but, i still does it...i am still a person i hate. well, not saying that i am going to forgive myself, but i am still working to get my Determination solid..it's still in a Gas state, i think......

that's 2 days' report. Thursday and friday. if i add Saturdays' report...too long le...
-END-

Yet Another ShowDown, just to make things big

2008-08-06T21:49:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow 7th August 2008, yet another ShowDown.

With Wired and Wireless Networking as a target.

Teacher/Examiner/Tester is Mr.Cleatus Fernandez

although i am not going into Networking Course, he rated me highly......

Show Down involving Router, Switch, Computers, laptops, Wireless Access point and of cause the worst thing to handle, Wires......tomorrow involved Speech, Perform what Fernandez wants and Wear CoCoNuTs...a...just kidding...wahahahahaha

After the show down and the tiring organising the Network. The day cannot end...*** damn it..

MDBS preparation for Lap Test and Written Test 1 hour after my WWNK presentation!

The School really don't know how to set a timetable!!

Horrible, Terrible, disgusting, uninspirating!

No matter what, Lao L birthday is today, Hope he had a good day, because i doubt his life is better than mine. Plus, if Valerie ranked me as Elite, Lao L is a Super-Human and Fiona is UltraWoMan. No matter how far i am behind these 2 Super Heros, i am not stopping on the chase! Those people whose same class with me in Secondary one, Long time no See, and I am still chasing you dudes!!! Myself - Battle CRY!!!! YEAH!!!!!(Raise Morale!)

But still...at long last, Projects and Presentations are coming to an end!

1 last presentation, 1 last lap test, 1 last week, 4 last paper!

and than! i don't know what to do in my holidays................................

Why is the world so twisted...

2008-08-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

What a day in this twisted world...

I am told indirectly that a Not Motivated person cannot motivate other people. what the hell? i asked a friend what motivates him and he tells me that "something that goes down for generations" will motivate him. so, why can't i do something that goes down for generations and motivate him? So these people are telling me that i can't do Something That Goes Down for Generations because i am not motivated?? WTF

i played a game, i took an empty village(which is open for all) than one guy said that i offended him! WTF! why is this world so twisted? am i too stupid to understand this twist? than, why can't the world get someone to teach me? i don't understand! don't even bother to understand because it don't make sense!

Lessons i have are going insane. empty time for resting makes me worried for what will come next. Got a Team of 3, with 2 guys being good at the same thing. got a family of Food-Interest while i am not. Got motivated friends all around me and i am not even motivated one damn bit.

WHAT THE F*** IS GOING ON!!!

Semester 2.1 Date as from 21 Apr 2008 to 26 Sep 2008's Thurday

2008-07-31T18:55:00.000+08:00

Thursday of this semester! A very good day indeed...
First Term - 9am - 11am and That's it for the day!
As some people don't need to go to school on friday (I need...DAMN!)
people started holiday on 11am thursday, can consider 3.5 Day weekend...

Amazing...haha...

Team Eugene, consist of SIA, PsyHic Gavin, Jiamin, CS (Myself) and gene himself. We could finish the Lab Lessons within 1 Hour to 1.5 hour. Which is equals to 10am, finish lesson! It's 3.75Days weekend for Jiamin, who don't need to go to school on fridays!

10am finish school!!! Like crazy people...go to school for 1 hour...lol

But, nightmares Must Come once in awhile in Life

Term 2 arrived before i even notice how lucky i was... 12noon, Thursday. MDBS 3 hours lab etc.etc. End school on thursday at 3/6pm

Today, Week before Presentation!

Teams are rushing through, getting tons and drozen and kilos of problems and as the Group that finishes in 30 minutes, everyone asking me...darn shit...if only i am as skilled as naruto...Multi-Shadow Clone! lol

Ended up alright...but i hope school admit...those Computers are really a bother......

At least, the showdown is in 7 days and i shall trimph!

Readers, wish me the best~

In the Present Time of Changing World

2008-07-30T15:08:00.000+08:00

Well, the world changed a lot......

1 of the things that is changing...
is my father...
Finally back from a 8 days HK trip.
What's the same, he got tons and drozens of problem with his computer...

what's different. his new phone (Never buy for my brother and me!) more viruses spotted in his laptop. More forgetful, even forget his PW for his stocks-online.

How's life? BAD!! It's just the first DAY-LIGHT he is back, he is giving me tons of problem because of his laptop!!

And, someone seems to be still mad at me in school. I don't know what to do!!

Although a guy say "She will not get angry 1 la" BUT she seems to be mad...

Lab-testes is down to 1 left (Mobile Database) and Resentation is down to 2 (Communication Skills and Wired and Wireless NetWorking) Projects is down to 2 (Wired and Wireless NetWorking and Water Technology) and lastly, Examinations is UP-ed to 4. Operating System, Data Structures and Algorithms, Wired and Wireless NetWorking and Water Technology)

Holidays will start on 27th August 08 from 15:30 (I hope), latest start of holiday is 16:30 on the same day though.

Didn't plan what to do in the holidays. Don't feel like working, nor just sit back and relax.

Just hope that father has lesser problem soon, she will cool off, Finish all Subjects this semester and Find something to do in the holidays...

asking for too much i guess...(laugh)

The World is changing...

2008-07-28T19:22:00.001+08:00

Global warming taking place. Microsoft coming out with something better than Vista. Mac Book Air - a totally wireless laptop is created. BeiJing Olympics around the corner. My Departure away from my class is coming soon. And Joshliew (My programming Lecturer) under observation next lesson.

The World is indeed changing......

Something that bothers me, a little, had arised......

Someone actually comment me "you changed"...at first glace, it's nothing, but took concern after some good people translation 'it' to chinese and laugh about it...

Human do change? i don't feel a thing? I live as close to My Way as possible?

Plus, the world is changing, i am Legal to change too, right?
maybe...i upgraded my 'people to people' defend lately......if there is a change, this is it...i can't help it actually...Katsutos Yuna once said "Everytime people pushes you and you take 1 step back, people will take one more step forward". So, I need to stay strong and not let people pushes me around too much...

But...all i did was to make close friends angry, because of me...........

Seems like i am in need of the One Person who will actually teach me how to be a Human...

Seems like i got old too fast...to get stress of "less things to stress about"......

Should Listen to Edmond, the Great' s words..."hey, no matter what, just relax for now"......

......

zzz...right...a blog...

2008-07-27T14:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm... it was now, that i noticed why blogs are normally dead or update once in a few months...

nothing to post about

Life in school -> Projects due soon, very soon......or it is over...

Life at home -> basically, brother's home everyday...parents aren't for this week......
bored...although having PS3, took ps2 to play...can't be helped, ps3 games are expensive......

Life with friends -> no life? didn't contact any even when i am free......

Don't know why, just feel like putting 'How i call my friend' below...

T.o.D - Desmond - Desmond.
T.o.D - Edmond - Edmond.
T.o.D - CW - kor (Brother, in chinese) / Wai...(Don't know why, sometimes take him as a friend)

ccss - Alvin - Lao L (old 'Al' taken from 'Alvin' without the 'vin')
ccss - Marcus - ma gou (Horse-Dog in chinese, copied from a chinese teacher [kekeke])
ccss - Fiona - (Her chinese name, used to call her by chinese name )
ccss - Sharon - Sha-ren (Kill - people, sharon sounds like 'kill people' in chinese)
ccss - CY - xiao yue (although he is older than me, called him 'xiao' (small) for the fun of it)
ccss - CK - chang lao (looks - old, though in the small class in school, he is older than my brother)

TP - Jeryl - [Use Singlish] Jeryl sia (Sia is commonly used in Singlish)
TP - Eugene - Gene.. (take away the EU)
TP - Gavin - psyhic (Made a speech about... '...Predict the soccer match's score before the match, 'it makes me feel like a psyhic'...' so, psyhic, he is...lol)
TP - JM - ...... (Better not comment on this 1 first...made her angry not long ago...)
TP - Fan - Fan Lao shi (Lao Shi = teacher - she teaches kids (not sure how old) chinese...)
TP - Aaron - American Time (American? took comments from the class, i not sure why i call him this)
TP - Ken - Bullet Time (2B biker, runs 120km/hr?? seems very fast, so, bullet time)
TP - Bo - Rey (Last word of his name is Rui, somehow simliar to Rey)
TP - JW - Jiao Wei (Called by a teacher, so, took it seriously (Sorry))
TP - Samuel - Sam (He introduce himself this way, so, keep it this way)
TP - Nghi - Na-E (That's how people people call him, Smartest Guy, oldest guy in the class)

Others...call by normal name ba......maybe missed out some...who cares anyway...

End.

The World Begins with you

2008-07-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

Name's CS...codename Deadman..
recently played a game on Nintendo DS, named
"The World Ends With You"
Well, a good game, although it last 3 Game weeks...
Fight 'Wild' or 'mobs' with 2 screens (Special Function of NDS)
Using Touch screen to battle below and Control Pad to fight above.

The Game starts with a Teen Neku who trust no one
ends with friends who fought by his side.

touching in some sense. Especially in the ending he said

"O, did I mentioned? I have friends now..."

Wahahahaha

Played too much game and i still need to complete my Assignments and prepare for exam.

Well, for at least, all i need to know is that "The world ends when you ends" because "You will never see the world again, whose world? your world"